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I have been loving this song lately. Sadly not because its expressing my current emotions...it mostly bums me out because I havent had this feeling in a long time

I just bought a hearse

What the fuck was I thinking.

So, its been over a month since my last post and I wasnt going to update with doom and gloom but fuck it. Its my journal and Ill cry if I want too.

My toe was amputated but the pain is all but gone, even the phantom pain. Thats the good thing, my dizzy spells are back, my hearing in my left ear is diminishing...
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I cannot get the image I wanted to post to fit properly....so, move along, nothing to see here.

So...life keeps me on my toes. lol no pun intended...I WILL have part of my toe amputated and I may be losing my job for medical issues...good times.

I just came home from an arctic survival course. I spent 10 days in Resolute Bay (google it). I now have very serious frost bite on my left foot, so serious I may lose at least the tip of my 2nd toe (index for those counting).
After 16+ years in the RCAF, I think its time I move on. The second I find a non...
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i am so tired of feeling trapped. Not living my life, not living where I want to live, not living near friends and family. I am so close to a pension, is loathing the next 3.5 years worth sticking around for a measly 30k a year pension? The only fear I have about leaving the military is my quality of life, how much stuff I...
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