optimistickid

i can't take it anymore. i can't find a job. i went to school for computer science. and for what? to throw away thousands of dollars apparently. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK i can't stand it. i am at the end of my sanity. i don't know what to do. i feel like there is nothing i can do. i just can't take it anymore. my parents are hounding...
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here is an mp3 of a song i made a while ago called xmas lights i made it with cakewalk home studio and it's obviously not perfect, but i'd really love to hear your thoughts on it. thanks

i'm tired. tomorrow i will post an mp3 of a song i made a while ago. i haven't written any new songs in ages. i'm so lazy. i want to play in a band again. how long has it been? 4 years? i need to start rocking again!!!!!!

my body aches from being sick, playing basketball, sitting in this shitty chair, and from my stupid back.

go listen to pearl jam - i got ID

even though i shouldn't get my hopes up, i can't wait for their next album. i am still holding out hope they will make another great album. even if it is not as intense as their earlier stuff....
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i have upgraded to xp. was watching schindlers list tonight from netflix but the disc messed up about an hour in so i had to stop. the movie really made me upset. how could such horrible things have happened? how could humans treat other humans so horribly? a person who murders another person for no good reason like that is not even human anymore. movies...
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i am upgrading to windows xp now..... how cool is that?

i just hope it works, since it is a burned copy.

otherwise i'll have to buy it

this entry isn't that interesting is it?

the vegetarian chili i made last night wasn't too tasty. but i think maybe if i added more chili powder and salt next time it would be really good. i...
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one of my goals for this year is to race in some 5K's and do really well in them. what would really well be? how about 15:00? wow! if i can do that, that would be incredible. that's like less than a 5 minute mile pace. i'm not sure if i can do that, but i'll see. i definitely want to get lower than 18:00....
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i bought a 200 GB hard drive yesterday. i am going to buy some RAM on ebay and then upgrade to windows XP. and then i might get an ipod. so much for not buying shit that i don't need. actually i probably will not get the ipod until i find a job.

what i really need to do is get better. i have been...
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i saw fight club yesterday for the first time. netflix is allowing me the pleasure of catching up on a bunch of movies i missed the first time around. i really didn't know what the movie was going to be like, but it was different than anything i would've imagined. it was really good. my favorite line was "the things you own end up owning...
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you know what pisses me off about the movie garden state? it's about this guy in his late 20's who is lost and depressed and has this chance meeting with a girl who recognizes the good in him and ultimately saves him from his depression and lonliness. well that's really sweet, but you know what? that never fucking happens.

i've had ear congestion for like the past 3 or 4 weeks. i know, i should've gone to the doctor, but anyway... so now the ear congestion is mostly gone, but now i am feeling kind of light headed and dizzy. i have waited this long without going to the doctor, but i am thinking about going now. part of me thinks that since i...
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