optimistickid

i went to atlantic city on sunday and lost $55. i don't want to ever go back there again. i feel stupid

another Friday night staying home and feelings of despair ache in my stomach

Well i'm back on this site for the first time since March. I really wasn't even planning on joining again. But I got an offer to come back for $29 for a full year. So for that price I said it's worth it to see some boobies.

i start work tomorrow. i feel a little uptight, but not too bad. i can't wait till tomorrow is over though. i hope i like the job and the people. i hope i haven't gotten myself into another nightmare situation. i wonder what kind of people will be there. i hope they are nice. i hope the place is well organized, unlike the last tornado...
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i only have 2 more days left until i start work. wahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i started cch about 1 year ago, wow, is it that long ago already?

my knee doesn't seem to be getting better. the 5k is on april 9th. it looks like i'm going to miss it for the 3rd straight year!!!!!!!! WTF!!!!!

more importantly, it could cost me almost $400 for an x-ray....
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my eyez hurt. too much tv + video games + computer for me. it's just that i have nothing else to do. i guess i could read though, if i wasn't so lazy.

yesterday my brother parked my car at nite and he said the brake pedal went all the way to the floor and he had no brakes for a second or two. luckily...
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i am eating triscuits right now. they are soooo good! i hadn't had one in years before yesterday. and i never realized that they are whole grain wheat too!

i have done it. after 25 years, things will never be the same. you shall see what i mean, if everything works out. otherwise, i'll lock myself in my room and never come out again.

my life is a joke, my life is a lie. i fake happiness because i don't want to face other people knowing i'm unhappy. i was thrown into this world without a choice. i may have been thrown into a crumby place, but it sure wasn't as bad as many other people have it, yet i did not make the best of it. i don't...
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i am back from vt and feeling alright. i had a good time this year. i am on an earlier schedule now thanks to getting up earlier for skiing every day. no more waking up at 10:30, it's 9:00 or earlier now. i got a job today. yes i am back at the same place. and making the same amount of money, which is good....
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i will be in vermont skiing all this week so you won't hear from me for a while. ugh, i don't even really want to go. skiing is so much work. getting up early. putting on all those ski clothes. trudging up the mountain in ski boots. ugh.... plus it's just me, my parents, and my cousin laura. i really would've liked to stay home...
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