Okay I am doing better today. I made myself leave the house last night. I was the good fruitfly that I am and took care of two of my gay boys. I even met a nice boy to go tattoo shops with! I'm still pretty stuck on Grant but it's nice to have a boy to hang out with. 
I went to the gym today....
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I am so depressed. I have been like this since Thursday. I barely can get out of bed to go to work. I stayed home and slept all night last night. Then today I was in bed until 6:00pm. I don't know what to do. I feel like crying. 
Part of me wants to go get out of the house, the other part of me...
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cosyne:
This suggestion isn't 100% constructive, but if not overdone can work wonders...
Go to Safeway and buy a pint of Ben & Jerry's "Pistachio Pistachio" Ice Cream. Then go home and eat the whole thing slowly while watching High Fidelity. Take the phone off the hook and lock the door. Then go to bed and think, "Tomorrow will be better." over and over again until sleep comes. You'll wake up feeling a million times better, I swear!!!
If you're lactose intolerant, however, you can replace the Ben & Jerry's with gin and have a pretty similar (albeit somewhat more hazy) evening.
Go to Safeway and buy a pint of Ben & Jerry's "Pistachio Pistachio" Ice Cream. Then go home and eat the whole thing slowly while watching High Fidelity. Take the phone off the hook and lock the door. Then go to bed and think, "Tomorrow will be better." over and over again until sleep comes. You'll wake up feeling a million times better, I swear!!!
If you're lactose intolerant, however, you can replace the Ben & Jerry's with gin and have a pretty similar (albeit somewhat more hazy) evening.
cosyne:
Well, if High Fidelity doesn't work, you can always try Dirty Dancing -- maybe that's the equivalent in that I don't know a single guy that likes that one -- but the ladies seem to love it... women are weird
Ugggg I need to move out. I woke up to my dad talking really loudly about the sex he had last night. 
I know my dad needs lovin too but I don't wanna hear about it. I thought I could handle living at home, saving money, go back to school for awhile, and just live with my dad. But if I have more mornings like...
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I know my dad needs lovin too but I don't wanna hear about it. I thought I could handle living at home, saving money, go back to school for awhile, and just live with my dad. But if I have more mornings like... Read More
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ilsa:
Hey I'm back and pink!
There's one thing worst than hearing your dad talking about the sex he had last night: Listening when he did it!
There's one thing worst than hearing your dad talking about the sex he had last night: Listening when he did it!
ilsa:
Thank you! 
Ouch you aren't in my friends list right now I suposse you deleted me when I went grey 
Ouch you aren't in my friends list right now
I suposse you deleted me when I went grey
Ugggg I need to move out. I woke up to my dad talking really loudly about the sex he had last night. I know my dad needs lovin too but I don't wanna hear about it. I thought I could handle living at home, saving money, go back to school for awhile, and just live with my dad. But if I have more mornings like...
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I know my dad needs lovin too but I don't wanna hear about it. I thought I could handle living at home, saving money, go back to school for awhile, and just live with my dad. But if I have more mornings like... Read More
So since it's Memorial Day aren't we supposed to pay tribute to all that have and did serve the US? How many of us actually do that? Most people look at it as a bank holiday and they are happy they don't have to work. I know I didn't think about anyone who has served our country while I wa watching MTV and eating ice...
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buster_hymen:
Aww sorry to hear about the relationship stuff and the tattoo. Me and my ex broke up on similar terms too. She was the best thing that ever happened to me, but we're at the wrong times in both our lives to be in a monogomous dedicated relationship. So I hear you about that.
The tattoo part sucks though! Damn I didn't know your body could be allegric to ink. Looks like I learned something today.......
The tattoo part sucks though! Damn I didn't know your body could be allegric to ink. Looks like I learned something today.......
doublec:
it was crazy....i never get that many comments....all the planets must have been aligned....and i did have a conversation with someone in my journal which probably took up 1/2 a page....
hope you are doing better than you were last week! *hugz*
hope you are doing better than you were last week! *hugz*
Sorry about my last entry. It still does hurt. I don't know after tonight if I am better or worse. I thought talking things out to get a better idea what happened would help me. I just feel numb and unwanted. Sorry for the really sad depressing journal. I don't want to be a downer but it's the only thing I can talk about right...
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xatreyux:
i got two tickets on an intermiediate license
sirenblu7:
And i Allways said the Beatles But Johnny would be top of my list as well.
Honey i know that it won't make much sence to you now but trust me and my 15 some odd years of dating when i tell you that "It allways works out as it should!!!"
I can't tell you how many sleepness nights i've spent crying over the loss of another "Should of been" but sitting here now at 34yo and looking back on it all I realise that everyone of those moments were just preparing me for the Guy who Actualy Deserves it all.
My Love is speical and sacrid Only it took me many a broken heart to actualy realise just how much that is worth to me.
Now it Doesent make it any better for you but know that there truly is Someone for everyone but as long as you hold on the the "Should of beens" your only Prolonging the "Suppose to be's" Have faith honey for he's out there just waiting to meet an awsome girl like you
SB7
[Edited on May 31, 2004 7:39PM]
Honey i know that it won't make much sence to you now but trust me and my 15 some odd years of dating when i tell you that "It allways works out as it should!!!"
I can't tell you how many sleepness nights i've spent crying over the loss of another "Should of been" but sitting here now at 34yo and looking back on it all I realise that everyone of those moments were just preparing me for the Guy who Actualy Deserves it all.
My Love is speical and sacrid Only it took me many a broken heart to actualy realise just how much that is worth to me.
Now it Doesent make it any better for you but know that there truly is Someone for everyone but as long as you hold on the the "Should of beens" your only Prolonging the "Suppose to be's" Have faith honey for he's out there just waiting to meet an awsome girl like you
SB7[Edited on May 31, 2004 7:39PM]
Damn, it fucking hurts.
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meanwhilethecat:
well, i dont see how that could be much of a negative thing...
meanwhilethecat:
thanks
So I am a little disappointed with my body right now 
I just got back from the tattoo/piercing shop. I was going to get my hood done! I got my pants off. My legs are up and open. He's in there cleaning the area. He checks everything out. Takes the receiving tube to place it under/in my hood and he realizes I don't have enough...
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I just got back from the tattoo/piercing shop. I was going to get my hood done! I got my pants off. My legs are up and open. He's in there cleaning the area. He checks everything out. Takes the receiving tube to place it under/in my hood and he realizes I don't have enough... Read More
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godlessnerd:
yeah, i have a brain problem
slc7675:
sorry to hear about the non piercing. that sucks
Ahhhhhh my whole body is itching. I am going crazy over here. I don't know if my body is having a reaction to something.
I went back to work yesterday. It was good to see the kids I used to work with and get to know the new ones. We had an incident today with one of the kids flipping out and attacking another kid....
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xatreyux:
everytime i try to talk to my mom she finds a way to defend her actions. For example "You need to respect my friends, i respect yours!" and i do respect her "friends" but im not going to respect someone who does heroin and puts my life in danger like her last boyfriend did
pyronautica:
Yes, chocolate is the devil in disguise.
Have you ever met those people in you life that are such strong personalities they have a huge impact on you? I had that happen to me today. I met Tony&Tina from the make up line. Most of you know I work for them. It was my first time meeting them though. They are two of the most enlightening people I have ever met. You...
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slc7675:
my weekend went way to fast
widower2000:
Take your time and do it right the first time. It will be well worth the wait, and you are well worth the wait, at least to me. Not much going on here.
Be well my friend,
Hugs and
Be well my friend,
Hugs and
I'll be aight!