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I'm getting a cold. I can feel it coming on strong. I am drinking a ton of water. Taking vitamins but I think it's still gotta hit. I was gonna go to Vancouver B.C. tonight but I think I will stay at home and rest now.

I am in a funny mood on top of all that. Around three this morning I heard a knock on my bedroom window. I looked and it was an old boyfriend. He used to do this all the time when we were dating. I was kinda annoyed cause I had to be at work at 9 this morning.

He said he wanted to say goodbye before he shipped out. I had no idea what he was talking about. Then he told me he joined the Marines and is leaving for bootcamp on Monday morning.

I don't know what to think about this. I care a lot about him yet, I need my space from him. We talked for a little while and I will see him tonight while he is packing. I feel really numb about it. I started crying when he was leaving. I just don't want anything to happen to him. I don't understand why he is doing this. Especially at this time. I know he is doing an honorable thing but I am so scared something may happen.

Ahhhh I need a nap to shut off my brain.