i've been kinda lost lately. this whole unemployment thing isn't all that i thought it would be. it's not that i miss actually working, i think that it is the lack of structure that is causing me to crumble. i drank some whiskey tonight and just cruised around town on my bicycle. there was moments that i was the most at peace with myself that i have felt in a quite a while. almost as if i was an observer in this world and not a part of it. don't know if that is a good thing or not but it was an interesting feeling being on the outside of the fishbowl looking in. i need to find some peace in my life and i have a hard time believing that this journey that i am soon to take is going to help.
sky:
im suffering a bit from a lack of structure, too. I have been used to routine for so long, now it seems strange that i don't have any.
