almost done trudging through another work week.
suposedly theres a party going on a couple doors down from me on saturday.
i have yet to get started on my costume for next friday. i'm a hair's breadth from wussing out on it, again. i just dont know where to begin. and i thought anna nicole was gonna be an easy one.
ehh, i hate halloween...
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suposedly theres a party going on a couple doors down from me on saturday.
i have yet to get started on my costume for next friday. i'm a hair's breadth from wussing out on it, again. i just dont know where to begin. and i thought anna nicole was gonna be an easy one.
ehh, i hate halloween...
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this was a semi-fun but short weekend...
missed out on seeing dane cook, waited too long to get tickets. took the people i had already promised a ride to down to orlando, went to see kill bill again with a friend while waiting for the show to let out, then went to the bbq bar to hang out. it felt good to get out for...
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missed out on seeing dane cook, waited too long to get tickets. took the people i had already promised a ride to down to orlando, went to see kill bill again with a friend while waiting for the show to let out, then went to the bbq bar to hang out. it felt good to get out for...
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adeline:
Anna Nichole Smith..what a chica to be!! I want to see pics of that!! 
stacie:
that's such a sad entry 
The right girl will come along. Usually, when you aren't looking for her
The right girl will come along. Usually, when you aren't looking for her
"'-there's something not right here. i feel cold...death.'
'-that place is strong in the dark side of the force. a domain of evil it is. in you must go.'
'-what's in there?'
'-only what you take with you.'"
yet another wonderful day at the office.
i've got to get past the feeling that every day is some epic test of my mettle.
something is wrong...
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'-that place is strong in the dark side of the force. a domain of evil it is. in you must go.'
'-what's in there?'
'-only what you take with you.'"
yet another wonderful day at the office.
i've got to get past the feeling that every day is some epic test of my mettle.
something is wrong...
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adeline:
The liquor filter shit really works too.. 
I can't wait till I start my new job. I don't know exactly what I'll be doing, but I do know that I'll be working for a construction equipment rental company....mmm money, I miss.
Debt sucks!!
I can't wait till I start my new job. I don't know exactly what I'll be doing, but I do know that I'll be working for a construction equipment rental company....mmm money, I miss.
Debt sucks!!
actuallynotyou:
The only thing that sucks more than having a job, is not having a job. I love debt, debt it the best thing ever. I'm gonna be paying off my college loans until I've got grandkids.. WOO-HOO..
but i regress.
I think Elvis Costello said it best
"Welcome to the working week, i know it don't thrill you i hope it dont kill you"
but i regress.
I think Elvis Costello said it best
"Welcome to the working week, i know it don't thrill you i hope it dont kill you"
i saw kill bill tonight.
sweet jesus, that is a good flick.
im going to be antsy for the next 4 months.
i definitely needed that. it was great to be truly entertained for once. between kill bill and school of rock, ive seen more good films this week than ive seen all year.
sweet jesus, that is a good flick.
im going to be antsy for the next 4 months.
i definitely needed that. it was great to be truly entertained for once. between kill bill and school of rock, ive seen more good films this week than ive seen all year.
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stacie:
why antsy for the next 4 months????
adeline:
I want to see Kill Bill..same with a lot of the movies that are coming out..
i've not much to say today, but i figured i'd turn the page on my last entry, anyway.
here's hoping this will be a lazy, restful day.
here's hoping this will be a lazy, restful day.
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_sarah_:
You'd be amazed how much cleaning and rearranging your place can realize depression and anxiety. Your home should be your safe haven, and I've learned that a clean, organized home makes ME feel organized and down-to-earth. 
adeline:
Its ok if you ramble, I do it all the time..so you are always welcome to ramble to me or in my journal. You also made sense in your random rambling. I often used to find myself searching for things or trying to out do myself..now I just let it all happen the way it wants to and enjoy life, in a whole new way. *hopes that made sense*
i seriously think i have social anxiety disorder.
after going with my friend(who is also my ex) to a movie, went back to her place for one of her storied 'stoop parties'. people just show up and hang out on her front steps, with or without her.
it took a few beers to get the frightening, panic-attack-slash-cardiac-arrest-slash-tingly-sensation-in-my arms-and-fingers to go away. my heart was racing....
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after going with my friend(who is also my ex) to a movie, went back to her place for one of her storied 'stoop parties'. people just show up and hang out on her front steps, with or without her.
it took a few beers to get the frightening, panic-attack-slash-cardiac-arrest-slash-tingly-sensation-in-my arms-and-fingers to go away. my heart was racing....
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_sarah_:
Additionally, actuallynotyou had a very good point that I forgot to make.
If you had asthma, you'd use an inhaler.
If you had blood pressure issues, you'd take pills.
If you had a horrible case of the flu, you'd drink orange juice and sleep more.
This is why I don't understand the stigma with seeking psychological help. Your psychological health affects your physical health to many degrees, so your brain should be the healthiest organ in your body. You SHOULD make it healthy, whether that's through therapy or a combination of therapy and medicine.
Once I started thinking of it that way, I stopped feeling like a cad for calling the doctor to say, "I need help."
If you had asthma, you'd use an inhaler.
If you had blood pressure issues, you'd take pills.
If you had a horrible case of the flu, you'd drink orange juice and sleep more.
This is why I don't understand the stigma with seeking psychological help. Your psychological health affects your physical health to many degrees, so your brain should be the healthiest organ in your body. You SHOULD make it healthy, whether that's through therapy or a combination of therapy and medicine.
Once I started thinking of it that way, I stopped feeling like a cad for calling the doctor to say, "I need help."
adeline:
You are purple now!! Try logging out and then back in, your friends should be purple again. 
there might be something wrong with me.
as badly as i want to just go out and do something, meet people, whatever- i can't seem to make myself get out there.
of course, that may be because the last few times i've been out by myself i drank way too much to be behind the wheel and drove anyway. it's a miracle i'm not dead...
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as badly as i want to just go out and do something, meet people, whatever- i can't seem to make myself get out there.
of course, that may be because the last few times i've been out by myself i drank way too much to be behind the wheel and drove anyway. it's a miracle i'm not dead...
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why is it when i need sleep the most i can't get it? what is it about the wee hours of the morning that make my mind not want to turn itself off? stuff i'd rather not think about, and never normally do, just bubbles to the surface.
it's always something i have absolutely no control over, nothing i can change, most definitely nothing i...
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it's always something i have absolutely no control over, nothing i can change, most definitely nothing i...
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leningrad:
my copy of Empire was massively fucked up though. I have to return it to the guy. damn that guy. good thing I withheld $10 in case of this happening.
under the weather, again.
actuallynotyou:
dont die...
i feel increasingly as if i will be one of those people who ends up alone for life.
the thing is, i don't know if that's entirely bad.
the experiences i've had in past relationships leave a pretty sour taste in my mouth. i'd like to have someone to spend time with, sure. but it really is just more time and energy than i feel...
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the thing is, i don't know if that's entirely bad.
the experiences i've had in past relationships leave a pretty sour taste in my mouth. i'd like to have someone to spend time with, sure. but it really is just more time and energy than i feel...
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stacie:
aw sweetie.. i wont even be making it to any more shindigs.. at least not for awhile..
My moving date got expedited and i am leaving the state next thursday..
Of course my family is all here so i am sure there will be a visit or 2 upcoming
My moving date got expedited and i am leaving the state next thursday..
Of course my family is all here so i am sure there will be a visit or 2 upcoming
stacie:
Thanks for the well wishes, sweetie..
I'll be visiting florida for sure.. and plan in enough time to make y'all get together!
I'll be visiting florida for sure.. and plan in enough time to make y'all get together!
had a bad day today.
i'm not noticing any days that aren't really good or really bad. there's been no middle ground for me lately. it would be nice to not have an emotional high or low for just a day here and there.
i'm not noticing any days that aren't really good or really bad. there's been no middle ground for me lately. it would be nice to not have an emotional high or low for just a day here and there.
stacie:
awww.. here's hoping tomorrow is a really GOOD day!
did some drinking tonight at my friends house. played some madden 2004 online while there. while i am usually a skilled defensive coordinator, leaving my friend to play offense, we got schooled tonight, twice. badly.
of course, it's just a video game. it still sucks after beating the dogshit out of most opponents.
this is the lamest. post. ever.
off to pass out, now.
night,...
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of course, it's just a video game. it still sucks after beating the dogshit out of most opponents.
this is the lamest. post. ever.
off to pass out, now.
night,...
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That girl i was taking about invited me to a party, i've already got plans (with my nephews so I can't cancle) but i'm trying to figure out a way to do both, then it hits me.
What the hell am I going to wear? Man this holiday is over-rated..
Wait i take that back as me after the party what i think about it...