Kind of hating my life right now. We are getting fucking pounded at work. We can't keep up. The department is shorter staffed than it has ever been before and there are more referrals coming in than ever before. That equals no fun time. There is just way to much work and not near enough time. I already sacrifice some of my own time to...
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I guess I should update this. I have been very absent on SG.
Work is still kicking my ass. I deal with bad situations and bad people. It is what it is. I have started applying for contracts overseas again, Afghanistan, Iraq and others. I need my Masters to ultimately do what I want. The only way to do that is to have more money,...
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Work is still kicking my ass. I deal with bad situations and bad people. It is what it is. I have started applying for contracts overseas again, Afghanistan, Iraq and others. I need my Masters to ultimately do what I want. The only way to do that is to have more money,...
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nikonphoto80:
well I really hope you can find a contract job that you will enjoy, or at least one that doesnt suck to bad.
I cant wait to see the new SG video.
I really need to start going to the gym again, I really do miss it.
Not watched the lord of the rings in a while, I guess I should pull it out and watch them all on a day I have nothing better to do.
I cant wait to see the new SG video.
I really need to start going to the gym again, I really do miss it.
Not watched the lord of the rings in a while, I guess I should pull it out and watch them all on a day I have nothing better to do.
So, xmas has come and gone. Uneventful, which is a good thing. New Years eve will be as well. I have gone out on New Year's Eve once in the last 5 years. I kind of gave up on going out on New Years, it is over-hyped to me.
Work is tough as usual. It is has been high stress, tons of work and consuming....
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Work is tough as usual. It is has been high stress, tons of work and consuming....
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nikonphoto80:
Well you should just go out, you may have a good time, Im going out to see a band play, at least I will get to see some live music.
I hope work gets better, even if you dont want to stay there, it could at least be more fun while your there. Drinking is fun, just as long as you dont over do it, I hope you can slow down. Im sorry to hear you hurt yourself, are you better now?
Well I hope you find a job you can live with over seas and I hope you are abele to get your masters and do what you want to with your life.
Well you should just go out, you may have a good time, Im going out to see a band play, at least I will get to see some live music.
I hope work gets better, even if you dont want to stay there, it could at least be more fun while your there. Drinking is fun, just as long as you dont over do it, I hope you can slow down. Im sorry to hear you hurt yourself, are you better now?
Well I hope you find a job you can live with over seas and I hope you are abele to get your masters and do what you want to with your life.
I need to stop writing about work on here. It is just a huge part of me right now it is hard not to talk about it a lot. Stressful as hell. Next month is going to be a nightmare. There are 3 people transferring so our workload is going up more. One employee who has been there for a long while said "I can't...
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opaque:
thanks for the birthday wishes 
nikonphoto80:
i hope so to, all i wanted was to stay long enough to get a house, so that kind of sucks, but it will be nice to not have to go back to that job for a while.
So. Not much new. Work is a roller coaster. A scary roller coaster. I have been bitching about it a ton so I need to cut that. I don't like people that complain all the time and I have started doing that with my job. I did get my first crackhead mother. I have had heroin, alcohol, pills, all that but just got my first...
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nikonphoto80:
I hope so to, but now there fighting and he feels like Im trying to tear them apart and that Im doing a good job of it, I feel bad, I never wanted to hurt anyone, I wasnt trying to break them up, maybe everyone would have been better off if they had just stayed in the dark, ignorance is bliss, I just dont know what to feel right now.
I was going to try to do all of that, thanks.
Everyone needs a place where they can get out all the bad things, it is better to do that hear then it is to keep it on the inside.
That is just fucking stupid, why would they want to wait, wouldnt it be better to start as soon as possible, I dont like that at all.
Well what is the job and why do you not know if you want to do it or not? Good luck, Im sure you will find a great job soon.
I have no social life either, at least you can go and talk to a friend, Im pretty much just talking to people on the internet.
At least you are ridding some, you will get back to it when you have more time.
I was going to try to do all of that, thanks.
Everyone needs a place where they can get out all the bad things, it is better to do that hear then it is to keep it on the inside.
That is just fucking stupid, why would they want to wait, wouldnt it be better to start as soon as possible, I dont like that at all.
Well what is the job and why do you not know if you want to do it or not? Good luck, Im sure you will find a great job soon.
I have no social life either, at least you can go and talk to a friend, Im pretty much just talking to people on the internet.
At least you are ridding some, you will get back to it when you have more time.
I guess since I am approaching 2 months since my last blog I should write something. I guess it is the struggle right now. I work a rough job that does not pay well. I work in social services and knew it wouldn't pay well and money is not that important but having enough to live on and save a bit is nice. Not doing...
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nemesis:
remember what an important thing it is to try and help, even though there are probably a lot of cases where you just know that nothing you can do will be able to change the outcome, most people spend their whole lives without ever having helped a single kid out of a bad situation.
and some kids really do recover much later on - sometimes things dont change until many years into adulthood. so you can never be sure its a hopeless future.
i know it seems strange, like, who am i to be writing here trying to see those things from the bright side - hell im a real cynicist so if i were you i would probably be pretty damn disillusioned with the whole system. but still, those few cases where things do turn out for the better are what counts.
and some kids really do recover much later on - sometimes things dont change until many years into adulthood. so you can never be sure its a hopeless future.
i know it seems strange, like, who am i to be writing here trying to see those things from the bright side - hell im a real cynicist so if i were you i would probably be pretty damn disillusioned with the whole system. but still, those few cases where things do turn out for the better are what counts.
nikonphoto80:
Thanks and yes that is the key.
I hope it does to, if I even do it, I spent a lot of time and money on it, but now I dont even feel like I will want to leave the house, Im way to sad for all of that.
I hope it does to, if I even do it, I spent a lot of time and money on it, but now I dont even feel like I will want to leave the house, Im way to sad for all of that.
My posts get further and further apart. I just don't have a lot to say. I am just struggling now. Money is tight as hell, the job is rough/consuming and my "social" life is a joke. These seem to be recurring themes. This has been a tough adjustment and I am trying to hang on and not freak out and go back to contracting.
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dice:
Sorry to hear about your troubles. I hope things pick up for you. And thanks for the lovely comment on my new set. xoxo
nikonphoto80:
Busters is an amazing place, one of the best bars I have ever been to, I cant wait to see more shows there.
You should, it would be like celebrating your return home, Im sure one of your friends will be having a party.
You should, it would be like celebrating your return home, Im sure one of your friends will be having a party.
Where did the fucking days go? I feel like I am living in a hole. I turned around and a month has gone by since my last post. In that time all kinds of awesome sets have gone up and good blogs as well. I haven't been commenting on shit. I just don't know what happened. I went to Hell City in that time which...
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nemesis:
What is it that you work with now? I read about people who work in social services and treatment centers and those fields and I am in awe of the strength that these people have to be able to deal with so much depressing, absolutely heartwrenching stuff. I don't think I could do it. I would go completely insane. At the same time its so important that someone DOES this work, its so sad that we don't honour it more than we do.
Wish there was something I could do to make things better for you, but at least know that you're in my thoughts.
Wish there was something I could do to make things better for you, but at least know that you're in my thoughts.
nikonphoto80:
thank you, all I did today was work, last night was fun, but at the end I got into a big drunk discussion that made me realize how alone I have been my whole life.
Finally got internet at my new apartment, so I am up and running again.
Things are going ok. I am trying to stay calm and let things kind of even out. Things not working out the way I had planned and settling into this life for a year or so is taking a lot of self control. I want to go back to the contracting...
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Things are going ok. I am trying to stay calm and let things kind of even out. Things not working out the way I had planned and settling into this life for a year or so is taking a lot of self control. I want to go back to the contracting...
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nikonphoto80:
Im pretty excited about seeing X live, I hear they put on a really great live show, I hear the last time they played at the dame back on 2003 it was pretty amazing.
You may like some of the bands at the Mayhem festival, there a lot of newer really heave bands going to be there.
What do you mean by link up? is that another term for hanging out?
I really hope work is better this week.
What is going on, why are things not working out? I hope things get better.
Wow that sounds really tuff, I dont know how I would handle things like that, I bet it will be a life change experience to say the least.
Looks like a pretty nice bike, tell me some things about it? Do you mind if I ask how much you paid for it? I need to get some work done on my Yukon Giant, I had not really had a place to put it where I live until I moved into this house, so it was at my mom and step dads place and they didnt take very good care of it, still seem to ride ok though.
You may like some of the bands at the Mayhem festival, there a lot of newer really heave bands going to be there.
What do you mean by link up? is that another term for hanging out?
I really hope work is better this week.
What is going on, why are things not working out? I hope things get better.
Wow that sounds really tuff, I dont know how I would handle things like that, I bet it will be a life change experience to say the least.
Looks like a pretty nice bike, tell me some things about it? Do you mind if I ask how much you paid for it? I need to get some work done on my Yukon Giant, I had not really had a place to put it where I live until I moved into this house, so it was at my mom and step dads place and they didnt take very good care of it, still seem to ride ok though.
nikonphoto80:
well I never pass up the chance to meet up with an internet friend, unless he is wanting to stab me in the face with a big ink pen, then I just tell him Im busy.
Things may not have worked out as of yet, but things will change and you will get to live the life you want, it just may take a year longer then you wanted it to.
That is a pretty pricy bike, but I want to get a $3000 camera, so I guess you get what you pay for, you can tell me more about the bike if you like, I think my bike was under 500 when I got it like around 1995.
Things may not have worked out as of yet, but things will change and you will get to live the life you want, it just may take a year longer then you wanted it to.
That is a pretty pricy bike, but I want to get a $3000 camera, so I guess you get what you pay for, you can tell me more about the bike if you like, I think my bike was under 500 when I got it like around 1995.
No internet at the new place so I have very limited SG time. Getting on SG at a coffee shop doesn't really work well. So I will be very limited on here until I figure out the internet thing.
nikonphoto80:
i hope you are doing well.
well the hotel that hell city is at is already full, so if I go I guess I will have to find a hotel close by.
i hope you are doing well.
well the hotel that hell city is at is already full, so if I go I guess I will have to find a hotel close by.
nemesis:
Hah, no I can imagine. I've checked SG at the library once... I was very careful only to look at journals. No one seemed to suspect anything.
Im really sorry things are not going well, I hope things at work get better and it is ok to get drunk from time to time as long as it doesnt hurt you the next day.
We have been getting a lot of snow this year as well, but no where near as much as you are getting.
I would like to get into yoga.
Good luck, I really hope you can find a job that you can live with.
Well you really should go, it is an amazing show and those girls are so sexy, but also Rollins would be nice as well, he is going to be in Lexington soon and I will be going to that.
Me to.