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i know your feelings exactly.. ive been having a lot of self realizations, and ive been learning to enjoy my own company.. and ive been thinking a lot about the question 'what do i want from myself?' 'what goals do i want, and what actions need to be taken to obtain them?'

OH and the car isnt breaking my bank account heh... ive had a few extra bux here and there to throw into her.. i cant wait until shes all finished though.. gunna be a few months before then..

My suggestion is to take life one small step at a time. Maybe you shouldn't always be looking at the big picture but looking at the individual steps you need to take to get what you want and to be who you want to be.

Right now you are on the right track. You are in school. That's pretty much all there is for you now. Most people your age are pretty much where you are now. Obviously you are working towards a degree and that's great.

What kind of job are you interested in for the summer? My favorite job ever was working at the pool at the Providence Marriott. But I worked that winter too but summer was especially kick ass there.

he's a baby and such a sweetheart. not a scary thing about him.

Why do you dread having free time? And don't you like the warm weather and the beach?

Oh and that guy with the IM was a total loser. I think I'll take your advice and do what you suggested the next time he tries to talk to me. So look for possibly more funny journal entries to come.

Oh and don't worry about being too lazy or too busy. It happens to all of us. *hugs*

Read my journal bitch.

I have an important message for all my so-called friends.

Hi sweetie!!!

I am sooo fukking sorry for being lame and barely commenting.

But here is how things spiral down for me on SG:
1. I had no Internet for a spell so I couyldn't reply.
2. When I finally got back on I had like a gazillion comments.
3. I spent like half a day catching up but I left some people for later---procrastination gets me everytime.
4. New entry and more people to reply to making me forget about others that I have been needing to reply to still.
5. More entries more people left behind.
6. My mission today is to catch up once and for all.

Wish me luck. LOL. I'm just the tupe of person that needs to reply to everyone. I just can't ignore a single comment. Oh and I want to thank you for checking in on me and commenting in my journal even though I have been so god damn lame.

Sooo how are you??? I was reading all the entries I missed and I noticed you saying that you need to start working out more. How is that all going?

Talk to you soon!

Love, Viki

haha, thanx for the coment

you need an adventure. go take a road trip. pack a bag and just drive and let the road take you where it wants you to go.

i would be glad to hang out with you every day of summer, but you'll have to move first. damn.

I looked at your pics. Very cool. You were a cute kid. And you are a cute adult. Oh by the way is that your mom in the background of one of them?

Hey well done on getting yourself a car! I think I had my first car when I was 16 but it wasn't really mine. It was one I had to share with my mom. Then I got it later. After that my parents leased me a honda. I guess for the most part my parents have always made sure I had a car to get around in. I know I sound spoiled but I swear I never asked for them to get me a car. I was happy enough using the city bus but they always insisted.

You know what I find annoying? The fact that sometimes racism is only unacceptable to only certain groups. Don't get me wrong---I don't think racism of any kind is cool but I noticed that racism towards Asians is like more ok than say against blacks. I date a guy from Cambodia so I guess I'm especially sensitive to it. I recently got to know a chatter who talks like this to make fun of the way "he thinks" Asians speak. He inverts his l's with his r's. For example, instead of saying fried rice he will say flied lice. Get it? Anyway, I really ripped into him one day in chat. What surprised me was that not many people had my back saying things like what he does is "cute" or "funny." I was disgusted. But one thing I'm happy about is that I always end up making him leave because I cause such a big stir in chat.

Sorry for rant but you are always so attentive and kind to me I felt like I could vent to you.

Hell yeah it was a comment and a half!!! LOL.

But I loved it. You expressed your feelings. I think that's cool.

I can't believe what happened to you on the board though. That's really fucked up. It seems like such an innocent question. Plus it sounds like you were trying to explain your actions later. I don't know why they wouldn't let you do that.

I see you do a lot of self-reflection but I'm worried about your mental health. I'm a big believer in therapy and possibly even medication to treat your depression. I've had bouts of depression but nothing serious just yet to warrant the use of drugs but it's not outised the realm of possibility. If things ever got real bad I'd be begging for those meds and def. someone to talk to.

Hi.

I didn't get as many replies as you had thought. And you know why? Because I never replied to old comments and if I don't do that I'm almost invisible. LOL.

No worries though. It's less fukking work for me.

Actually, I've been thinking about how I can make this more fun and less work. I keep dreading coming on because of all the comments I need to get back to. Doesn't sound like a lot of fun when you start dreading it eh?

What's going on with your life? You sound really down.

i go to ric too...bleh