I hate how cynical I've become.
I'm surrounded by so much bullshit.
Example:
One of my roommates invited a friend of hers, E, to come visit. E is a poor, single mom who can barely pay her rent.....I don't know her very well but I take Christmas pictures of her daughter every year, and she dated my boyfriend about 4 years ago (and is not over him - it's awkward - she's lonely). Since I needed to shoot the Christmas pictures, my roommate asked if I'd be home while E was over, so I could shoot her kid. I said sure.
That night my boss kept me late at work, so, half an hour before E was supposed to show, I texted my roommie to make sure she'd be home on time so E could get in. She texted back "no prob."
And then about 20 minutes later, she texted me again "have to drop boyfriend at class. left door open for E." Didn't make sense to me. Her boyfriend lives with us, has a car, and could drive himself.....but ok.
We don't live in the nicest neighborhood, and E has never been there, so that seemed crappy to disappear minutes before she'd show, but I was almost home. I got home around 8, to find E standing in the dark living room, not sure it was the right house she had walked into. My roommate hadn't even left her a note explaining where she had gone.
She and I waited for my roommate and chatted (very awkward), and then after more than an hour, we woke her daughter up for the pictures (big tantrum).
Hours passed without my roommate returning from "dropping someone off." .....and finally she came home, boyfriend in tow, in skanky night-on-town clothing - very clear they had been on a date, not driving to and from fight classes. She barely nodded to E, and disappeared into the bedroom with her boyfriend.
So....E spent over an hour each way driving into town, spending gas money she doesn't have, with a crying toddler in the car, so she could spend time with my roommate, and my roommate disappeared at the last minuted without warning or apology to go on a date with her live-in-boyfriend. WTF.
I'm not saying anything about it to my roommate since it's really not my fight to have. But it's just absolutely a shitty way to treat a friend.
.....and this seems to be the norm. I know 20-somethings are self-focused people trying to discover themselves and pave a path for their future at the same time.
But seriously. There's a difference between self-focused and self-centered.
And lately, no one seems to know that.
I'm surrounded by so much bullshit.
Example:
One of my roommates invited a friend of hers, E, to come visit. E is a poor, single mom who can barely pay her rent.....I don't know her very well but I take Christmas pictures of her daughter every year, and she dated my boyfriend about 4 years ago (and is not over him - it's awkward - she's lonely). Since I needed to shoot the Christmas pictures, my roommate asked if I'd be home while E was over, so I could shoot her kid. I said sure.
That night my boss kept me late at work, so, half an hour before E was supposed to show, I texted my roommie to make sure she'd be home on time so E could get in. She texted back "no prob."
And then about 20 minutes later, she texted me again "have to drop boyfriend at class. left door open for E." Didn't make sense to me. Her boyfriend lives with us, has a car, and could drive himself.....but ok.
We don't live in the nicest neighborhood, and E has never been there, so that seemed crappy to disappear minutes before she'd show, but I was almost home. I got home around 8, to find E standing in the dark living room, not sure it was the right house she had walked into. My roommate hadn't even left her a note explaining where she had gone.
She and I waited for my roommate and chatted (very awkward), and then after more than an hour, we woke her daughter up for the pictures (big tantrum).
Hours passed without my roommate returning from "dropping someone off." .....and finally she came home, boyfriend in tow, in skanky night-on-town clothing - very clear they had been on a date, not driving to and from fight classes. She barely nodded to E, and disappeared into the bedroom with her boyfriend.
So....E spent over an hour each way driving into town, spending gas money she doesn't have, with a crying toddler in the car, so she could spend time with my roommate, and my roommate disappeared at the last minuted without warning or apology to go on a date with her live-in-boyfriend. WTF.
I'm not saying anything about it to my roommate since it's really not my fight to have. But it's just absolutely a shitty way to treat a friend.
.....and this seems to be the norm. I know 20-somethings are self-focused people trying to discover themselves and pave a path for their future at the same time.
But seriously. There's a difference between self-focused and self-centered.
And lately, no one seems to know that.
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As for cynicism, well it's hard not to be cynical with how the world is today. But there's nothing wrong with a a healthy cynicism, and can actually be fun sometimes.