Monday Sep 29, 2003

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During my thesis meeting, one by one, the pages of my score fell off of my advisors piano, and scattered across the floor. This happened in several senses.

I made it all the way home without crying.

All that I want in the world now is to curl into Meredith's lap.
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gram:
are you on right now? do you have aim?
f74g, aim me!
isaiah:
Don't cry. Just remember that almost every great artist has had let downs. You just gotta use it to your advantage.

Sunday Sep 28, 2003

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My sister found the nudie pictures I left on my parents' computer. Why did I leave them there? Probably in part because there was an off-chance that someone might care enough to find them. Anyone who cares to look that hard deserves to see me naked!

She's a super-sleuth, and not only knows how I look with my clothes off, but where I share this...
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lucky105:
Sparticus IS a build-a-bear! Well, actually he's from Wacky Bear, which is almost the same thing. He has a birth certificate and everything.

I'm glad that my family isn't particularly nosy... Is you sister more cool or more annoying?
tronvillain:
Hey Olsen's sister. Did you actually have to use your super-sleuth abilities to find those nudie pictures, or were they pretty easy to find? *chuckle*

Sunday Sep 28, 2003

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Here is the sign I wanted to post on my door today:

I promise to abstain from participating in acts of email, porno, diary, or socialization until after 5pm.

Of course I didn't have the guts to make that commitment, so several of those addictions got the better of me. I wonder if there is rehab for people like me,,,,

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tunnelslats:
Hmm, I'm generally antisocial after 5pm. You obviously have it all backwards. tongue
mrluckys:
i don't think you need to worry about your e-addiction. check out this addiction article here.

on another note, it seems that we have a similar problem. you want all the straight girls and i want all the twisted ones. i have yet to find a solution...

Saturday Sep 27, 2003

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Who the hell invented straight girls anyway?

They're fired.
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lucky105:
You're great. biggrin
fox1:
hey straight girls are girls who just dont have life figured out yet. theyll come arround eventually.... cause i said so.

Thursday Sep 25, 2003

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I spent the evening taking pictures in front of an open window, shouting clearly to anyone who asked what I was doing,

PORN!

When I finally emerged, I ran into a friend who told me I looked Feral. He said I looked dangerous, like I could hurt him.

I imagine I had an aura similar to the after-sex glow.
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cherry:
No worries about the tips wink Like I said in the thread - obviously, I'm no authority as I'm not staff - but it's just how the process of sending my sets has gone.

I did mean the tea party set, and thanks smile We had a few problems with the guy who took the photos as he was nervous and the pictures were very shakey, and not very well framed - also there was a tonne of clutter in the background as the setting wasn't ideal. But, I photoshopped the set because I knew it wasn't good enough otherwise. I added the text also smile

Good luck with your set, I've said before, I know they're pretty strict on the quality of the sets they'll now accept. I know my first two sets might have been rejected if I was to apply now, but it's all a learning process.

Cherry xox
isaiah:
That's cool. My aura resembles a broken flurescent light jittering in a brown hallway.

Wednesday Sep 24, 2003

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It occurred to me that I have no suicidal urges whatsoever right now. My life is going well. Someone is directing my musical. I am graduating from college. I have a job in television production that places me in Australia and New Zealand.

It all sounds disgusting. A story that's too good to be true. ....Don't worry though, something is wrong:

I'm an artist, and...
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freckle:
for actually saying "oh my goodness" you are also cute. biggrin
cheech:
Hi, O. I thought I had you Friend-listed... did yr SG account go out for a bit? I got pretty spaced-out from checking on SG people with the power-outages n hurricane stuff last week.
Nice to see people on a career upswing on SG.

smile ooo aaa

Tuesday Sep 23, 2003

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I have a hard time seeing myself involved in anything that doesn't change the world.

What if I had the opportunity to be a part of something from the beginning, but had now way to know what or how that something would turn out to be?
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isaiah:
Yeah, but if we knew everything that'd happen eventually we'd get pretty bored. I mean even the bad shit can be funny eventually.
isaiah:
Why read about someone elses fuck ups, when I do it so well myself. Oh, the big boo-boos I've made in my time!

Tuesday Sep 23, 2003

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You might characterize me as a reluctantly straight girl. I'm so much more attracted to girls than boys, and so much more frequently. But for whatever reason it always turns out to boys with whom I am involved.

I keep finding myself in the middle of strange love triangles, which I imagine happens more frequently, and with more complications in gay/bi culture than in straight...
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longblackbangs:
i think it would be safe to say that is the least of my worries as far as self-deception goes. I have been decieving myself for the past 22 years and I don't know if viewing my audience for my daily rants in a different way is gonna change anything.

But then again everyone here has the intention (or hope) that someone is gonna see what they wrote so I would be lying if I said I am truely writing these with the thought that noboby will see it.
lost_is_my_name:
It's not so bad ending up with a guy.....unless they're a jerk of course, but I wouldn't know how to be one......this may sound really disturbing, but I always said "love is an unitched testicle"....

Monday Sep 22, 2003

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If it were an option, I would breed with one of my best friends, live with him, raise babies with him, complain to him about my love-life, and listen to his stories about dating.
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fox1:
thats the lamest idea ever. cause then theres always the awkward moments, and what happens when the kids get confused. you would just be asking to raise screwed up kids. children need a stable enviromnment.

o and the other night i just used my supreme mental prowess and made him think i was too drunk to know what was going on or to even make it worth his while. i felt pretty for doing it cause i was drunk a bit myself

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olsen:
The idea is to reinvent to family structure entirely. So you're not evaluating it within the vocabulary of the old structure. Keep it an open discussion, talk to the kids about what we do differently from other families.

Sunday Sep 21, 2003

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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAGH!!!!

I love my life, I love my life, I love my life, I love my life!



I feel like this right now.
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torturegarden:
Love the life you're in biggrin Seeing the happiness in writing makes me feel all happy too, thanks (I live vicariously)
tunnelslats:
Yes, yay me. I need more people to think that way.
You have a thing for pictures of people with exposed tongues, don't you? tongue

Sunday Sep 21, 2003

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It's funny how a film can have such an impact on life. The previews before the Two Towers were all for sequels that somehow reminded me of Meredith, who had died a week or so before I saw the movie.

I remember being really upset by the preview for Final Destination 2, which showed a series of car-crashes. This was the sequel to the film...
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mistereel:
all chucks other books are awesome. choke is my personal favorite cause i can really relate to it, however most people think survivor is the best. either way both of these books are a must read, hell even my mom has read them.

**edited cause i have fat fingers**

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desertlover:
Oh you are going to New Zealand???? Kick ass! I just saw the movie whale rider, which was filmed there. I TOTALLY recommend that you see it if you haven't already. Daniel

Saturday Sep 20, 2003

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Sometimes I sit around waiting for moments to pass. This is such a waste of a lifetime.

A friend of mine told me today that he had the feeling that I was going to die soon, that he was almost certain that my life was more than half over.

I had to agree with him.

I want to live harder than most people do, pack...
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antenna:
thanks for the positive words.
you're right of course. smile
x
tobydog:
Do not regret any moments of your life, they are all precious. We cannot have the brilliant, radiant times without the dull moments as a counterpoint. Dull moments give us empathy.

Don't believe what your friend told you.
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