oldmanwithers

Have you ever felt that no one cares for you? Well, i'm kinda going through that once again. Feel like the world is against you, and there is no way you can be cut a break, or have a "easy streak," for once. Ever since my parents go a divorce, things just have never been the same in my life... You know, I've moved 7 times in my life, well, possibly 9 (will explain later)... And it's always gotten worse.

1)Lived in LA, moved to Canyon Country to a 2 story house. This is where i went threw all of elementry, i loved this house.
2)Dad lost his job, couldn't afford it, moved to a decent 1 story house.
3)Couldn't afford house, moved into a decent apartment.
4)*possible 9 moves here*Dad lost job again, couldn't afford apartment, was kicked out. Was homeless living in a motel. Lived here for 2 weeks.
5)*possible 9 moves here*Couldn't afford motel. Found a cheaper one. Lived here for week an a half.
6)Found a cheap condo.
7)Parents got a divorce, I moved out with my mom and sister to a condo across the complex away from my Dad.
8)Mom bought a decent Condo, where she still currently lives.
9)Mom kicked me out cause she claims "I take advantage of her," and also i wasn't going to school, or had a job at the time. (i did graduate HS, was right after) And moved in with my dad in this TINY ass studio type house in the woods...so to say.

I still live with my dad... place is so small, he has a bed, and i sleep on a couch. It's a two sitter couch, so i can't fully stretch out, and no, it doesn't have a fold out bed underneath. I've been here for year an half, maybe 2 now... And now he's getting frustrated with me for varies reasons, and getting close to kicking me out. I've asked my mom if i could move back in, she basically said, in not too many words, "HELL NO!" So soon i might not have a place to live... Wonderful. I just recently lost my job cause the company got bought out... All the jobs are full because of seasonal working fucktards. I'm in a small amount of debt, and running out of money.

Holy geez... Life is the pits right now, and i have no idea what to do... So confused, so frustrated. I need to win the lottery or something. That might improve my day...or to find someplace to live, comfortably...