oh_me_ghost

I am wrong.

Writing everyday tends to make me feel raw inside.

Its obviously pointless.

I feel like Im running against a fast-moving current, a current of sewage, that keeps knocking me around.

Life says, stop, you forgot something, go back and try to find it.

The more I write, the less Im sure of anything.

Id like to move to Mexico, immediately. Just to...
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She might have had a point. O Yes. Destroying everything one writes inside a fire. Its me in there No, its the past. Death to everything that was. Life to everything with a pulse and a desire and a voice. Duality isnt so bad. Highs and lows? North and south? In and out? Its all fairly appropriate. Except when its horrible, in which case its...
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I want to save you from yourself

I know you do. Which is why I will never be truthful with you.

Crusatyr (2nd part), by Floater.

Well. You wake the world up
and you got their attention.
Well. Have you really got
something to say, about it?

Cat got your tongue, now has it?
Have you got the drugs, to free it?
Or have you really got
anything to say? I doubt it.

You can bring it all back, somehow!
Yeah and I believe it.
Yeah...
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When something goes wrong, the best thing to do is to assume responsibility Accepting responsibility feels awkward and uncomfortable at first which is why people avoid it, but theyre not pansys because they avoid responsibility, they actually endure more pain, more anger, more net suffering by not assuming responsibility. Blaming others is fine, but after a while, I think it just gets boring, even if...
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Writing in order to uncover.

Verse.

Writing in order to create.

Verse.

Writing in order to communicate
to others.

Verse.

Writing in order to write.

Swish, swish, swish. Which one is the
red ball under?

I'm not sure.

Make a guess.

Ok, the red ball is under the last one.

No.

The problem is we think we exist. We think our words are permanent and solid and stamp us forever. Thats not true Sometimes when I read poems at a reading to strangers, I realize they think those poems are me. They are not me, even if I speak in the 'I' person. They were my thoughts and my hand and the space and the emotions...
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Im probably more angry than I have a right to be. And I can appreciate how it doesnt help to be this pissed, but still. Its as if everything I do is meaningless because of the fact that I do make mistakes on occasion. I get 99% correct, but this is somehow proof that I suck. What I hate is people who use other people...
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The desire to conform in some measure is fine. Its crucial to the existance of a society. Whats bad is sometimes the society itself, or the culture, but there is nothing implicitly wrong with the act of conforming. I think, largely, if a human being is healthy, then there is going to be a significant amount of conformity. But I dont think theres any reason...
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The buddhists state that everything on earth is suffering. Is being influenced by outside forces the definition of suffering? Or is being influenced by an outside force only painful for an ego that cant tolerate the existance of anything but itself, thus it says all is one, all must be one, because they cant tolerate variety and interdependance and varied opinions and the complexities of...
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Ordinary
everyday
people
are
great
ordinary nightmares
ordinary lives

Ordinary
everyday
people
are
fine
ordinary apples
ordinary wine.

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Temporary Love
and cyclical
disgust.

One step forward and
Two steps back

Thats not even close
Its more like

One step forward
Right off the fucking cliff

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