Talking to myself:
So I'm seeing this great woman....she really makes me feel happy but for maybe the first time in my life I really, honestly feel really good to be me and she's a huge part of that. We've been seeing each other for a couple of weeks now and more or less see each other a couple of times a week. She's busy with work and lives about an hour away and doesn't drive which means I drive a lot but I have a bunch of time off from work for the next couple of months.
One things been bothering me that I need to talk to her about but she was busy tonight and works two shifts tomorrow so I won't be able to do so for a couple of days so I'm venting here
She has a lot of male friends. That in and of itself is not a bother but I'm not really sure what her relationships are like with her friends. I'm also not sure exactly what she sees our relationship like. She said before that she's wondered if she should have gotten back in touch with me (we sorta stopped talking once about a month ago after just meeting) because she knows that she'll be moving across country in a year and doesn't want me to get hurt (she knows I'm a long term relationship kinda guy). She's also a very sexual woman with much more experience than me. She's not really into dating since she moved out here because she's planning on moving....I'm just sort of wondering in my head. "Well maybe if she's not interested in dating and she says that she won't date her male friends maybe she just fools around with them but won't make a committment with them?"
She's never said that her and I are exclusive or boyfriend/girlfriend or anything like that. She's made off comments about a male friend of hers that has a "fuck-buddy" so that makes me think that she might not be doing this and that she views us a little more like I am which is as a real relationship...not just casual sex and hanging out.
......Of course I'm massively overanalyzing this and it is something I'll talk to her about in some way. But it's just that I won't have the ability to talk to her for a few days and since I'm not working right now my normally overactive imagination is in massive overdrive
I really care about her. I could easily see myself moving to new york with her if things continue to improve the way they have been. The weird thing is that for some reason...for the first time in my life I'm actually accepting of the feeling that someone really likes me. I've always had some doubt before. Now from above it might look like I still have doubts but I don't. I know she really likes me.....what I'm not sure about is how she's defining and seeing our relationship. It's something we really haven't discussed much.
So I'm seeing this great woman....she really makes me feel happy but for maybe the first time in my life I really, honestly feel really good to be me and she's a huge part of that. We've been seeing each other for a couple of weeks now and more or less see each other a couple of times a week. She's busy with work and lives about an hour away and doesn't drive which means I drive a lot but I have a bunch of time off from work for the next couple of months.
One things been bothering me that I need to talk to her about but she was busy tonight and works two shifts tomorrow so I won't be able to do so for a couple of days so I'm venting here
She has a lot of male friends. That in and of itself is not a bother but I'm not really sure what her relationships are like with her friends. I'm also not sure exactly what she sees our relationship like. She said before that she's wondered if she should have gotten back in touch with me (we sorta stopped talking once about a month ago after just meeting) because she knows that she'll be moving across country in a year and doesn't want me to get hurt (she knows I'm a long term relationship kinda guy). She's also a very sexual woman with much more experience than me. She's not really into dating since she moved out here because she's planning on moving....I'm just sort of wondering in my head. "Well maybe if she's not interested in dating and she says that she won't date her male friends maybe she just fools around with them but won't make a committment with them?"
She's never said that her and I are exclusive or boyfriend/girlfriend or anything like that. She's made off comments about a male friend of hers that has a "fuck-buddy" so that makes me think that she might not be doing this and that she views us a little more like I am which is as a real relationship...not just casual sex and hanging out.
......Of course I'm massively overanalyzing this and it is something I'll talk to her about in some way. But it's just that I won't have the ability to talk to her for a few days and since I'm not working right now my normally overactive imagination is in massive overdrive
I really care about her. I could easily see myself moving to new york with her if things continue to improve the way they have been. The weird thing is that for some reason...for the first time in my life I'm actually accepting of the feeling that someone really likes me. I've always had some doubt before. Now from above it might look like I still have doubts but I don't. I know she really likes me.....what I'm not sure about is how she's defining and seeing our relationship. It's something we really haven't discussed much.
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