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So....I was bored one night and I decided to check out the craig's list personals...I figured it couldn't hurt any and maybe I'd find something interesting. Well I saw this one ad that quoted a Radiohead song so I thought I'd send her an email. Well it also turns out that she's a Sleep fan....I've never met a female Sleep fan in my life...amazing band but not very well known. So I traded a few emails, talked to her on the phone and I thought that went well...then I get an email that she's going to New York as a last minute thing but to send her a letter because she likes regular mail much more than email....well it's been a week and change and I've heard nothing.

I know I complain a lot on this thing but this really sucks...just as I start to get my hopes up a bit, add to that the shitty conditions I'm working in, my band falling apart. I'm the kind of person that when I feel down I like to listen to really sad songs...kinda helps me purge I guess. Well they don't even work now....it sucks not being able to look forward to anything right now. I just feel lifeless....probably best that I don't date right now..I'd probably be super clingy and attentive and blow all of my money....I feel like I need something good to put my energy in.