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It's really amazing how difficult it is to find a drummer. Maybe there are just a lot of spineless drummers out there that can't admit that they just don't like us or our music....I'm sick of hearing how much they really like us but it's just not the right project for what they want to play. If this was like many band situations it wouldn't be that big of a deal but the other 3 of us really get along amazingly well both personally and musically so it's very disappointing to not be out there. I know we not really really mainstream even in our own obscure sub-genre we're not that common a flavor but still...after all these years we can't land a steady drummer. So the 3 of us are going to get together and decide where we're going. Maybe changing the name and focus of the band, adding other members (besides a drummer) might be in order to reinvigorate things. Our singer loves playing drums but he's just not capable of doing both at the same time neither myself nor our bass player is a capable singer so I don't think a 3-piece is in our future. If you know a drummer I'd greatly appreciate it if you steer them our way.

In better news I'm really looking forward to 2-weeks of vacation coming up...it's going to be a whole lot of lazy. I'm really loving my iPod, it's a great thing to be walking the dog while jumping from Neurosis to Yes to Fugazi and Junior Kimbrough in just a few blocks.

In less pleasant news...the toxicology report for my friend Amanda ( demonbuttercup ) has been done for over a week but there is still no cause of death yet. I'm not exactly sure why I want to know but I just feel compelled to know what happened. She was just too young and it was just too random. It's been a little over 2-months since she passed but it feels like an eternity and yet I still have my moments where I feel like I did excactly when I found her. I wish I could just open up my chest and vent all this pain and grief out but it's wrapped its way around every fiber of my being.