So tonight was "date" number 2....in the process I really upset a good friend of mine (my plans changed at the last minute and it meant alienating a long-time friend and I feel really bad about that). The day/evening was nice but strangely platonic. I really like her and am attracted to her (and she gave me a Sleep shirt) but two things struck me....
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If I ever believed in jinx's I'm setting myself up here 
I swear everytime I complain on here that things aren't improving in my new relationship something good happens right away....I should maybe complain more often Well this time I got a really nice call from Erica tonight...one of the great things was that it was so early. She usually gets out of class at...
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I swear everytime I complain on here that things aren't improving in my new relationship something good happens right away....I should maybe complain more often Well this time I got a really nice call from Erica tonight...one of the great things was that it was so early. She usually gets out of class at... Read More
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demonbuttercup:
jeesh - with yer crazy driving, no talking car accidents! especially when i'm in the car with neurosis thumpin' and yo' thugged out ride rollin' heavy, boyeeeeeeee!
trixel:
I JUST now realized where your name came from, because a friend reminded me of Contact which reminded me of Occam's Razor. 
I love In Utero too.
I love In Utero too.
...got a nice little email from this woman that's occupied all my journal for the last couple of weeks. She's just been super busy is all and about the only time she sometimes has off is the morning or early afternoon on weekdays and that's when I'm at work. I can't honestly be too bothered by something I knew going into this but I guess...
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delusion:
yay! i get nostalgic for those simple happy times when everything is so fresh & new & exciting. hope things work out beautifully....
yeah, vegans are mostly smelly hippies or fucking trendster emo kids but i actually have a good reason, i had cancer a couple years ago, i've been in remission for a bit but i cant really eat that kind of crap. i was a fucking steakavore before so i get cravings that i really just cant ignore & then i go and eat big macs and supersize fries like a starving somalian, shoveling into my face with little kids pointing and crying and getting scared. ..ok fine maybe it wasnt that dramatic but it was awesome.
i just got to the central coast. i love the beach, the ocean, the fog but i miss la everyday. just getting knocked around in a dirty little bar while a band i've never heard of plays, walking around the streets, stepping over sleeping and homeless shadows, i know its tacky, gawdy and cultureless but i fucking love la.
yeah, vegans are mostly smelly hippies or fucking trendster emo kids but i actually have a good reason, i had cancer a couple years ago, i've been in remission for a bit but i cant really eat that kind of crap. i was a fucking steakavore before so i get cravings that i really just cant ignore & then i go and eat big macs and supersize fries like a starving somalian, shoveling into my face with little kids pointing and crying and getting scared.
..ok fine maybe it wasnt that dramatic but it was awesome.
i just got to the central coast. i love the beach, the ocean, the fog but i miss la everyday. just getting knocked around in a dirty little bar while a band i've never heard of plays, walking around the streets, stepping over sleeping and homeless shadows, i know its tacky, gawdy and cultureless but i fucking love la.
delusion:
ehhh...im a pompous fuck anywhere i go. i dont need the reality of superiority to feel that i am...
Turmoil in dating take 7,320,541:
I want to thank those of you following my dating follies...it really does help to have not only a vent but some good advice as well.
Well...I'm having a hard time being patient. Friday night it really just hit me how depressing it made me feel. So there was the hope that (Erica) the woman I've been talking to would...
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I want to thank those of you following my dating follies...it really does help to have not only a vent but some good advice as well.
Well...I'm having a hard time being patient. Friday night it really just hit me how depressing it made me feel. So there was the hope that (Erica) the woman I've been talking to would...
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instarsia:
if you EVER get super grover underoos...i want some pictures
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[Edited on May 02, 2004 1:29PM]
trixel:
I'm not sure what to say except that I hope the best.
I missed out on seeing Eternal Sunshine. Likely it's going to be a renter.
I missed out on seeing Eternal Sunshine. Likely it's going to be a renter.
I'm a mess
I'm certain that I will never, ever be mr. calm and collected when it comes to fairer sex. I flip flop so much that I should consider a run for the oval office.
I'm a master at taking the slightest, more imperceptable event and turning them in to full-fledged worst case scenarios.
So I met this new woman and it's got me...
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I'm certain that I will never, ever be mr. calm and collected when it comes to fairer sex. I flip flop so much that I should consider a run for the oval office.
I'm a master at taking the slightest, more imperceptable event and turning them in to full-fledged worst case scenarios.
So I met this new woman and it's got me...
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trixel:
I'm not sure I should be dispensing advise or that you should be thanking me. I am 35 and single after all. 
I know by virtue of having screwed up so many times, I guess.
I'm off to sleep.
I know by virtue of having screwed up so many times, I guess.
I'm off to sleep.
demonbuttercup:
calm. you'll be fine. once this experience passes (or the anxiety and all), you'll see what i mean.
love you.
love you.
So I went out to meet this girl I've been talking to (first meeting, I guess you could call it a date but I try to avoid that word). We had made no real plans to meet that day, it's was fairly spur of the moment that she invited me...she sent me a pic the day before but to my surprise she was much better...
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trixel:
*shakes it around the room* I'm glad I could be a factor in naughty thoughts. 
we all need more of them I think!
Thank you for the lovely comments about my bum.
we all need more of them I think!
Thank you for the lovely comments about my bum.
Well just like that life starts to turn around...just another way of fucking with me is all
When I got home from work....in the mail box I actually found a letter from that woman I've been talking to. A very nice letter (she hates email and has been out of town so I couldn't call) that sounds a bit promising but I'm sure it'll end...
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When I got home from work....in the mail box I actually found a letter from that woman I've been talking to. A very nice letter (she hates email and has been out of town so I couldn't call) that sounds a bit promising but I'm sure it'll end...
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delusion:
the thing that is hard for me is that i am not trying to make a living off my writing but i do want to get it out there. would you feel satisfied with writing a song that no one ever heard? but to get my stuff out there i need to fuck with the whole business aspect of it. 
sorry work is shitty lately for you. i think i would have suffocated if i had taught for much longer. the scope of the suffering and the enormity of the problems that i saw everyday haunted me so far past the 3 o clock bell that supposedly released me from responsibility. but your music will save you. my writing did.
sorry work is shitty lately for you. i think i would have suffocated if i had taught for much longer. the scope of the suffering and the enormity of the problems that i saw everyday haunted me so far past the 3 o clock bell that supposedly released me from responsibility. but your music will save you. my writing did.
demonbuttercup:
wow. we hung out nearly every day spring break, and you still felt ignored. 
So....I was bored one night and I decided to check out the craig's list personals...I figured it couldn't hurt any and maybe I'd find something interesting. Well I saw this one ad that quoted a Radiohead song so I thought I'd send her an email. Well it also turns out that she's a Sleep fan....I've never met a female Sleep fan in my life...amazing band...
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trixel:
Oh great, way for me to make you more sad. ACK. Tomorrow it will be some novelty song, so you'll only feel moderately queasy instead
trixel:
That song makes me feel like wearing some buttless chaps in the Castro
Well that made me grin. *slaps your ass* Ride em Cowboy!
Well that made me grin.
*slaps your ass* Ride em Cowboy! I feel like such a little kid...I've had a week off and I don't want to go back to work. I'm literally counting the hours 'til I have to be back. I need something to cheer me up but I've been awful short on good news lately.
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demonbuttercup:
i wanted to go get krispy kreme, but now you are gone...where the hell are ya?
trixel:
*hug* I know exactly how you feel.
So what is it like having a slave?
Well, a full live-in consensual slave/Mistress situation is what I'm aiming for. My slave lives many miles away from me. I met him in a game. *grin* Yeah, I'm a gaming addict. We plan to see if there's chemistry in November in New Orleans. If there is, then we will proceed. *smiles*
So what is it like having a slave?
Well, a full live-in consensual slave/Mistress situation is what I'm aiming for. My slave lives many miles away from me. I met him in a game. *grin* Yeah, I'm a gaming addict. We plan to see if there's chemistry in November in New Orleans. If there is, then we will proceed. *smiles*
So I'm really bad with seeing movies. I usually just stick to my "its probably going to suck" frame of mind and talk myself out of seeing just about everything. Well I somehow managed to drag myself to a movie theater to see Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.....well, it made me physically nauseous. I could barely take it...and several times I nearly walked out...
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trixel:
Just had a lovely walk: trains, ducks, families. I've been assigned the task of writing a story involving a lucky penny, a talking squirrel and a black Elvis impersonator. Wish me luck!
trixel:
*smiles*
I'm making dinner: scrambled eggs with salsa and bacon. and steamed corn. Martha Stewart I am not. Luckily I have a boy who will one day cook for my bachelor ass.
My slave was trying to cheer me up. He suggested it as a game. He's a very sweet boy. I'm still thinking of how to write it. I've been wanting to write some erotica too, so there's a small part of me right now who wants to write an erotic piece with those three elements. *laugh*
I'm making dinner: scrambled eggs with salsa and bacon. and steamed corn. Martha Stewart I am not. Luckily I have a boy who will one day cook for my bachelor ass.
My slave was trying to cheer me up. He suggested it as a game. He's a very sweet boy. I'm still thinking of how to write it. I've been wanting to write some erotica too, so there's a small part of me right now who wants to write an erotic piece with those three elements. *laugh*
So....my band lost our drummer; so if you know any drummers interested in playing stoner rock in the san francisco area let me know
While we look for a drummer the rest of us are going to try and give a shot at making some good old fashioned drone in the style of Sunn O))), Earth, Teet of Lions Rule Divine, Boris (on Absolute/Go) etc....we'll...
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While we look for a drummer the rest of us are going to try and give a shot at making some good old fashioned drone in the style of Sunn O))), Earth, Teet of Lions Rule Divine, Boris (on Absolute/Go) etc....we'll...
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swingkitten:
ahahahah!
ahahahah!
swingkitten:
Once I have some time to myself around here 
I saw High On Fire last night....it took me back to seeing them for the first time about 3 years ago (opening up for Neurosis) and having no idea who they were. That night was a big one for me....made me see music in a new way. I love inspiration....now I need some inspiration in my love life 
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kittencore:
Smart ass
kealli:
yes.. miss steamy hot sexy kick ass polly jean
~k
~k
Good luck!