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Monday Dec 01, 2003

Dec 1, 2003
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When your own words just aren't enough, let them sing it for you.

On the boy front:
He had to go to work this morning, and the toddler was very grumpy too. The kid is crying, the dad's exasperated, and I just wish I could do something, and I feel like I have been so disruptive to the patterns that they have established.
I said I was going to leave today, that I thought I had been disruptive enough for a little while. And he asked "so I won't see you when I get home?" And I don't know if that was with relief or regret and I was too afraid to ask.
I cried a lot about it last night after folks had gone to sleep. There is such hopelessness inside me.
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sugar_on_asphalt:
*hug* Been there.
Dec 1, 2003
thatmikeguy:
hey... been away for a while myself. glad to hear you have had some good stuff, and sorry to hear the downside of it. sounds like it's been a quick ride into some emotionally complex territory. I hope you're doing okay. At this point I've never dated anyone with children, but it's been complicated when my friends have done it... not that it can't be great mind you, but you definitely have to be in a particular mindset for it. Sounds like you have been starving for a sincere emotional connection... I can definitely identify with that. It's been a long time since I was really in love. I'm definitely noticing it.

okay... I'll end the sob story ; ) Feel free to e-mail if you need to vent smile
Dec 1, 2003

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