OK this must be quick bcse I have so much to do tomorrow and I realized how addicted I am to writing on this thing bcse all day things were happening that I wanted to write about as if anyone really fuckin cares...I dunno it's weird.
Just wait till I am naked and everyone loves me!!!
Just kidding I don't care. much. HTis is not the fucking point. First of all I realized I need to get papwheelie to fix me up with a bike for the canyon, so I can ride to and from work which is across the canyon and up a hill. It is ok to walk and of course I should walk but I can't subject my car to it.
Kitten (that's her name- and in the interest of all my friends from hawai'i it should be spelled Ki'in) does not like these roads. But I was thinking about a little motorbike (two stroke!) and me motoring on over there rippin through the canyon, annoying all the neighbors. I just love that image.
I was working on my friends house today oiling the wood for the walls with raw linseed oil and I was covered in sawdust and oil and wearing my cowboy hat and explaining what was going on to the 2 yr old, (she has THE MOST ENCHANTING way of saying "wow") and I was just loving it, loving the activity and the image equally, and feeling good.
The other brief thing was that the other baby not even a year fell asleep on me, and its been really hard for her lately with all the activity around and she gets overtired and cranky and I felt such a privelege that she would feel safe and comfy enough with me to just pass out. So we napped together for a little while. I didn't feel I could put her down bcse her ear was right on my heart and she would notice the change and wake up....Yes, I am all mushy over the kids but I feel right about my place with them. I really don't want to go through that whole thing myself, and especially bcse of the basic alone state of being....what is that called in science. The stable state...when something is at rest it tends....ggrrr...speaking of rest...I MUST SLEEP.
good night.
ps I added a pic of my new art piece...
Just wait till I am naked and everyone loves me!!!
Just kidding I don't care. much. HTis is not the fucking point. First of all I realized I need to get papwheelie to fix me up with a bike for the canyon, so I can ride to and from work which is across the canyon and up a hill. It is ok to walk and of course I should walk but I can't subject my car to it.
Kitten (that's her name- and in the interest of all my friends from hawai'i it should be spelled Ki'in) does not like these roads. But I was thinking about a little motorbike (two stroke!) and me motoring on over there rippin through the canyon, annoying all the neighbors. I just love that image.
I was working on my friends house today oiling the wood for the walls with raw linseed oil and I was covered in sawdust and oil and wearing my cowboy hat and explaining what was going on to the 2 yr old, (she has THE MOST ENCHANTING way of saying "wow") and I was just loving it, loving the activity and the image equally, and feeling good.
The other brief thing was that the other baby not even a year fell asleep on me, and its been really hard for her lately with all the activity around and she gets overtired and cranky and I felt such a privelege that she would feel safe and comfy enough with me to just pass out. So we napped together for a little while. I didn't feel I could put her down bcse her ear was right on my heart and she would notice the change and wake up....Yes, I am all mushy over the kids but I feel right about my place with them. I really don't want to go through that whole thing myself, and especially bcse of the basic alone state of being....what is that called in science. The stable state...when something is at rest it tends....ggrrr...speaking of rest...I MUST SLEEP.
good night.
ps I added a pic of my new art piece...
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i noticed our french is in gear again!
i must sleep, as well. but i wanted to say that i miss ya. can't wait till i have more time to post for the both of us.
--j
... it's 4:15 am! where ARE you?