obsidity

I should not be awake now. I should sleep until 3 and then get up and go start my work exchange for the contact improv fest. But the phone woke me up so here I am. I have a bunch of stuff to do anyway.
Fuck, the new set has goggles in it! Well my set is completely different anyway. So are my goggles.
OK another big problem. I have to buy food.
I HATE FOOD SHOPPING!!! I know I need to start eating well...well, eating. Bcse by this weekend I am going to be dancing with strangers and they are going to be depending on my presence of mind and body and ability to be strong (in my own skinny weakling way) and function and I am happy that I am going to be doing this but I am scared, and I feel like a failure already.
So I must needs eat.But when I think of food, I draw a blank. Kinda like math equations. My mind just stops.
If I want to fulfill my destiny of being an incredible fantabulous freaky superstar anime hero of alternative thought and action and spread wonder and excitement and hopeful collective vision throughout the universe with my powerfully moving and humorous performances, artwork, workshops and interactions, well, I think I have to start by eating a little better, cuz thats going to take some energy. And I am not getting any younger.
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