SO my sleeping pattern is totally fucked.I just woke up. It's 4pm. The sad thing is I would like to go back to sleep.
I have done no xmas shopping. big fat zero. I have this low level antipathy towards it that flavors any decision I make that would further this xmas business.
It's in like 5 days and I have nothing.
I am such... Read More
sweetie, you can borrow one of mine..... I have a plethora of them. gay boys are the best friends cuz you don't have to worry about them wanting to hump you!
I'm off to watch jon stewart....mmm, jon stewart...
The day has just gotten immensely better in a sort of backwards way bcse I can now use this:
:menstruation:
THANK THE GODS THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU
now of course it will be a sucky few days. But that is better than a sucky nine months and then the rest of my life...... Read More
I am very paranoid about falling asleep with a candle burning. I don't sit them where they could fall over, I am careful about candle holders, and if I start getting sleepy I blow them out. I love insence as well, but I don't have any good incense right now, so I don't think about it much until I get a chance to get some again.
Yes it was amazing, stupendous, fantabulous, stirring, moving suspenseful exciting and all and it would have been even better if I hadn't gotten a wheedling little brainpiercer of a headache halfway through that I still have.
ow.ow.ow.
ow.
we did the all three at once thing. it fucking rocked. the extended version of two towers made it a whole different movie. in a good way. a very good way. ROTK seemed to get a bit loooong after yet another battle scene, but that had a lot to do with the fact that by the last battle scene I'd been in that blasted theater for **12 HOURS** already.
OK, NY. I think it's time for some girl action. I am always a little shy with the girls, though....
I at least need some good fooling around time, if not more....
I woke up at 3 today. 3 PM, that is. But I had a hard time getting to sleep bcse my dad's computers kept on making noises. I shut off one, and the... Read More
yea, my ear thing started the 8th, and is still going on. I tried a few home remidies, but they didn't work as well as last time. Now its time to buy some OTC crap from Walgreens, and try that stuff.
The magazines have it all wrong again,
With that taut skin stretching over sharp male hipbones.
A little belly on the boy
Gives friction
In just the right place.
I appreciate it more than mere emoticons can express
Oh, and thanks for the words of tummy love...i think mine is cute, and it is always good to hear that others like boy-belly...of course i think boy hip-bone is sort of hot, but that's probably just the misinformation talking...
OK. I am going to NY as soon as I get back to SF practically. I will be in the bay area for the weekend, going to the bizarre bazaar in search of gifts and some other party that night I think....but I really have to pack for cold ny winter....
ON second thought, I got a message from that one...y'know and he wants to... Read More
Gotta go drive for 3 1/2 hours now, kids, so I can't say much. But I will have internet there, yay! But it means I miss my haircut day with yonderboy
I want to sleep, but the clowns will eat me...no wait. I just have to go cuz I am meeting people in town at a specific time, so no more of this rambling.
I... Read More
dream:
There was this religious cult that had a big scaffolding with a bunch of folding chairs on the top where they would sit and wait to ascend into heaven. I almost was found out as the imposter I was bcse I didn't have a hair covering. the place got busted up by the police and... Read More
it's okay. i had a wonderful marathon session on thursday night for my living in sin partner's birthday. woah. i mean...woah. now THAT you shoulda been to.
I think I missed the panacea for the deep grief noone can touch part.... sounds quite heavy ; )
I think the key to not creating that situation (him getting into you, you deciding you don't want it, and leaving... hurting him), is simply in maintaining communication about it. If you tell someone what you feel, honestly, at each step along the way... they will progress through your experience just like you do, and won't be surprised at the end... or, in the optimal case, will continue to hear your love expressed (not in a repeat it every day as a habit way, but in an sincere communication way). It sounds like you are able to talk directly about those issues, and already are, so it seems like you're on a good path in that sense. Granted, it doesn't remove all heartache from situations, but it will definitely make expectations more manageable.
I'm sorry it's confusing though. If you can just know what YOU want, and tell him what you want, and find out what he wants (that's a lot of wanting ; ) you should be fine though. Not to say that what you want isn't confusing... god knows most of us stumble around trying to figure out what we want for our entire lives. But the answer to that is there usually, if your paying attention and willing to accept the answers. Okay, now I'm on some philosophical soapbox... I'm stopping ; )
So yeah, did you know there is a difference btwn the morning after pill and RU 486 or 68 or whatever?
I guess I sorta did, but I was opening up the package for the former (plan B) and it said "do not use if you are pregnant" and I thought "isn't that the point?"
Now I get it.
I will never have to worry about stuff like that with my partner anymore, which was sort of a nice thought until I realized I will end up going the rest of my life without a partner, so that's kind of a downer. I think I'll go make coffee now.