obliviousfocus

It was an interesting weekened. I kinda just let it flow like water and saw where it took me.

Friday:
Went out to the bar and sat around drinking Sprite all night so that I didn't drink. Played a lot of pool and just enjoyed the moment. I actually shoot better while sober. I had a lot of fun just sitting there listening to the music and enjoying myself. When the bar closed Dan and I walked back to his truck which low and behold had a flat. We had to walk about half a mile to a gas station to get some fix a flat. It was pouring rain and so we just took off and got it. I get back to the truck and try to inflate the tire but it is just too far gone. His spare is also flat. I wonder about his sanity some times. So we walk back to his apartment in the rain. As we go I'm laughing up a storm and skipping through mud puddles. I figured we're already fucked, and there is nothing to do about it so just make the best of the situation. This was until the car passed and slung mud and water all over us. At this point Dan dropped to his knees screaming why god why. I just picked him up seeing as he was drunk and helped him get back to his apartment. I made sure he got to bed and I went home. It was funny in its own way. I guess you can just laugh at what life throws you some times.

Saturday:
I got bored so I just wandered around a lot. Found Dan at the bar (you see a pattern here?). We sat around till I got bored and went to visit my brother. I talked with him and we tried to watch the Man-Thing. Being old we both just passed out on the couch and woke up after it was over hahha. I got up and went to find Dan and Adam. I went to our normal bar and was greeted to women running around screaming and acting like idiots. But there was no Dan or Adam. I thought this was funny considering this is the kind of stuff they are always looking for. I went to another bar and found them. We got invited to a party so Dan and I went and Adam went home. We get there and people are drinking and playing blues and bluegrass music. I was in fucking love with the situation. I just sat and listened to the music. Everything was great till people decided hey lets get naked. So all these guys got naked and started playing guitars. Dan freaks out on me. I guess I'm used to things like this since in college that happened all the time. Though I did want to grab some of the guys when they came by and yank just cause well you shove your penis around my face and I'm going to retaliate. hahahaha. I got Dan home again and he passed out hahah. I'm too nice to my friends I should be more mean.

Sunday:
Went to see nikonphoto80's art show. He had some great pieces and I really enjoyed it. After that went and saw Hitchhikers Guide to The Galaxy. If you are a fan of Douglas Adams and really enjoy the books. Don't go see this. I think you will be disappointed. And that was my weekend.

Thoughts:
I remembered something an ex said to me once. I gulp life and I don't sip it. At the time I thought she was just a pretentious bitch trying to prove her self better than me. Now I kind of see she was trying to tell me something. Was the only good thing she ever really told me. I run through life hurrying it and wanting to make sure it goes and goes. I never sit back and realize that life just has its own life and rhythm. I should but I haven't until now. When I sit back and enjoy it just for what it is I tend to leave the depression behind and find some peace in life. Maybe if I had done this earlier I would have been better off, but I think everything is learned in time and at our pace so it was not my time to know these things.

Well here is a poem.

Fingers along taut strings
Play me a memory
Pluck upon the lifeline of my soul
Make me feel something outside myself
Songs of yesterday teach me the future
I've slowed enough to listen

And a song that I think everyone should listen to.

Live Free - Son Volt



Looking for the right kind of live free or die...

I want to see your smile through a pay phone
The season has changed
I want to see you in it
The lights that shine are caustic without you.

When we're all passed over
The rhythm of the river will remain
And it will remain

Nicotine and waiting
Just wanted to keep it alive
You turn and before you know it
We're just threading this needle for life

A brighter way is what you prove
Anesthetize is what you do.

When we're all passed over
The rhythm of the river will remain
And it will remain

Someday we'll be together
Farther south than the train line
The Delta mud will be there
We're just living this way
Because we know no other

When we're all passed over
The rhythm of the river will remain
And it will remain

Looking for the right kind of live free or die...