obliviousfocus

Okay I am watching Finding Neverland. I have wanted to see this for months. It is interesting as hell. It makes me think of things. I loved it. I cried. Yes thats right I cry at sappy movies. It was beautiful. It showed that part of us that never grows up yet is crushed by the weight of adulthood. It struck a chord in me. A deep chord. It made me remember when I was a child and lived in Neverland. When fairies danced in my head and played music of joy. These are the things I forget when I grow older. The feeling that if I believe it will happen. How do we lose that? I don't know. But it is a terrible rift in the soul. Right now I believe that one day when I do wake up she'll be there. A silly dream right ? I don't think so......


Tonight I realized that as I was buying groceries that for the first time in my life I feel like I have a home. You must understand that I eat out all the time. I rarely buy groceries. I just always live out of boxes. For the first time in years I just feel at home. And it is good. I just wish I had a certain someone here with me now and that would be perfection. Such perfection. *sits and thinks of her eyes*

Now on to the poetry.

Innocence is lost
Her screams pierce the cool night air
Nothing is the same

We live in a dream
Apparitions do float
The waking lost

Joy is in my heart
It's presence brought by her love
My smile is now true

Now for something not haiku

Lay me down in the bed of your dreams
When you sleep
I wish their embrace to cloak me
The warm touch of your soul
Kindles in me a wish
To touch that smile that cuts me
Kiss the eyes that haunt me
Hear that laugh that inspires me
I want to be in those dreams
They are home