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Okay. You know who you are. So all I am saying is that. Well I'm a complete dork because of you. Word!!!!!!!!!!!




Okay yeah i'm goofy and smitten by her wonderfulness.


P.S. : I had a dream about you. You asked me if I wanted to get married and run away with you. I said yes and then grabbed your hand and ran off with...
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Disclaimer: Extremly Sappy

I never knew how much my father really loved me til today. I used to think that he was resentful of my brother and I. I haven't had the best dealings with my father over the years since he divorced my mother. Just too much pain and resentment.

As I sat at the funeral today and listened to my family recount the...
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You know. I went to my grandfathers visitation. There were over 200 people there. I have never seen that many people in one place. Funerals are now my family reunions.
Its interesting how removed I am from the situation. Out of 200 i knew maybe 10. That is sad.

In other news. There is like this person and like she like inspires me. She makes...
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I think since my whole schedule is changing that I need to rethink everything yet again. I am sure I will be back on night shift again soon. Right now I'm just confused about a lot in my life.

On a positive note. I got drunk last night with my friend Dan. We took a Spas and blew up television sets for fun. Booze and...
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If you want to read the story it is in the previous journal.

Have you ever wondered why you particularly love someone? I mean what about them just stands out in your mind and makes you go yeah I love them. I've always wondered about that.

So I am sitting here stunned. I took off work because well because my grandfather died. I found my family and found out the arrangements and then I wanted to be alone. I didn't know my grandfather as well as I should have. He was not the nicest of guys. He was in many ways the anti thesis of who I am as a person....
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I just found out my grandfather died. FUCK IT

Okay I'll make this short and sweet. Someone is making me blush. And I keep fighting it but damnit they are so fucking cute. Anyways I now return you to your regular SG environment.

Oh if you wanna read my poem it is in the previous journal entry.

Just A Poem


ART

Soft fingers trace wet lips
Shallow breaths escape
Eyes trace the canvas of your form
My mouth a brush
Sculpt my desires in your flesh
Knead your untamed thoughts
Give substance to your passions
Spatter our bodies with lust
Become a living Pollock
Lose ourselve in Sin
Let Bosch picture our folly
Our feelings are not manufactured
Like some Warholian nightmare...
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I bought the Night Court: First Season DVD. I fucking love this show. I had forgotten how much I loved it. It cheered me up and made me appreciate good TV(If people don't like it screw you!!!). But thats all I have to say. I'm going back to my show.

LIstening to Leonard Cohen as his words blend into the intro for Silent All These Years by Tori Amos. I love the fact when I was young and dumb I rummaged through the college radio throwaways. I have music I will never find again and will always treasure. And btw is anyone out there stalking me? If so let me know. Justice was asking if...
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Confessions.

Tonight I sat and thought about my current state of affairs. I wen through a break up in hrmm early January. I was really upset over this and felt extremly used by my ex( I was in some ways). I retreated into a shell and pretty much drank every night for about 3 weeks. I pretty much went on a downer and go sucked...
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