obliviousfocus

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I am applying for a job that may take me away from Kentucky. Who knows if I'll get it but I think it will be worth the shot.

I come home. Wander the empty house. I realize she isn't here. I hate that. I miss her knowing I am here and she is there. I sleep in an empty bed. I wake up alone. Knowing she is there and I am here. I hate this.

This is for her. Even if she doesn't read it right now.

I'm sorry.

You have touched me in a way that I can't describe nor do I want to because I don't want anyone to share what I feel. I miss you in my dream. In my waking. In my thoughts. In my arms. That is when I miss you. I just want you...
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So how does one screw up. Let me give you an easy lesson. If you miss someone let them know. I mean dont just keep it inside and not let it be known. Otherwise you could be eating your own foot later on.

Smoking like a fiend
Thoughts going through my brain

All I wanted was for you to be here when I was sick this weekend and hold me.
Screw it.

So this is my weekend. I went out saturday night and watched Sin City. Which for the record fucking rocks out. I loved it. Then my friend Dan decided he wanted to go drinking. I said okay lets do it. We go to the bar and have a couple of drinks. I try not to drink much since I have to drive home. Dan gets...
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Lay my body beneath the willow tree
So that the branches comfort me
The flowers shall fall upon my grave


I don't even feel like finishing it
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*smacks self for being emo*

I hurt. I never drank so much in my life. I never want to do that again. I will explain more about it later. Right now i'm too hung over.

More haiku for you to abuse.

Inevitable
Life is a passing fancy
Let joy be your soul

Touch calm waters
Drink of the light fantastic
Skim the shallow waves

Sleep peacefully dear
Let not the demons disturb
My love shall protect

I just need to sleep. But I dont have to work tomorrow. And I feel like hopping a plane and just flying my ass...
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Okay I am watching Finding Neverland. I have wanted to see this for months. It is interesting as hell. It makes me think of things. I loved it. I cried. Yes thats right I cry at sappy movies. It was beautiful. It showed that part of us that never grows up yet is crushed by the weight of adulthood. It struck a chord in me....
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Okay a minor rant. I go to this gas station every day. And there are these two hot girls that work there. I talk to them and we have a great time. Just one problem. They are like in love with a guy I work with so I hear them go on and on about him. Then another guy I work with comes in today...
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