I just realized that yesterday made nine months since my last breakup. That means eight months since she tried to mind-fuck me. That means eight months since she turned everyone I thought I could count on against me. That's a handful of death threats and at least one attempt to carry through.
That's also nine months of paranoid seclusion broken only by a handful of... Read More
i can understand your situation. my friend has been alone for a year, and is soooooo lonely. i've been alone for 6 and have found that i like my alone time. there are glimpses here and there where i feel like the rest of the world and wonder if there's ever someone out there for me, but i am reminded of the pickyness that maybe it's best that i stay single. i like me, i can put up with me just fine, but it doesn't mean i can find someone else who suits me.
Before I bolted out this evening, I started a thread. To my surprise, it had grown to four pages in the eleven hours I was gone and contained like six repostings of a picture of Flux. Craziness.
I saw a black midget lady with a purple afro get into a row with the Japanese clerk at a convenience store today when she couldn't reach a... Read More
One of my friends that I hadn't heard from in a while sent me a forwarded joke yesterday. I thought that was cool and sent her a quick note asking how she was. All I got in response was a cheesecake modeling picture of her starting to pull her pants off with the caption, "How is this?"
I have to be the single shittiest "adult" on the planet. It's amazing; I can create entire software product lines, help found businesses, and yet I'm mystified/afraid of using the copy machine. I'm pretty sure I couldn't figure out a bus schedule if I tried.
It just seems that I have all this badass professional knowledge and neglected learning how to be a real person.
There are days when message boards make me remember what it was like to be nineteen, know everything, and be living such an earnest life. God that was tiring.
I want to drink badly. I'm so tired, angry, and sad. I don't like feeling this way, because it's so hard to keep from tearing into other people that don't deserve it.
I tried again to start a new novel writing project. I've written the first chapter about twenty times and don't like the feeling of any of them. Today's started out, "She says she wants a spanking, and I wonder what the fuck is wrong with people." I modeled this opening after a particularly bad first date moment I had a... Read More
Hey where can I find the download for the search bar so I can see the http:// www.bla bla bla? I was horseassing around and uninstalled in from my comp.
What to say? I work too hard, sleep too little, and can't keep the two separate. Even with nothing hanging over my head that needs done, I'm still up at 5:51 after tossing and turning for two hours.
Hockey night was fun. I wish I had pictures of PunkJr as Vader, but what can you do?
I just realized that I'm usually the geekiest person... Read More
So tired and burnt out. Trying to finish a database design, but I can't concentrate any longer. Just need to finish checking the decomposition and stored procedure design. Maybe in an hour.
Last night with the other weird kids was fun as always, but I don't think sobriety suits me very well.
Ya I have a good excuse. I'll say it later.