nthomas123

So I keep waking up paralysed. SERIOUSLY!! Its been happening to me since I was 13 years old, like 3 or so times a week. It still scares the shit out of me now as much as it has, the first time it happend to me!. Its the worst feeling in the world just laying there. Not to mention I almost have a panic attack everytime, but my body thinks im asleep so I get those long deep slow sleeping breaths, even though it feels like hypervintalating(SP) As much as you want to, you cant move, you cant talk, your eyes are only open about half way and yes you can see and you can hear, but thats it. Its the most horrific feeling in the world ecpesially when someone is in the same room. Although the ultimate worse time; that it has ever happend to me, was a couple years ago when I was home for Christmas. I was napping and my whole family was in the living room, I was on the couch. I could hear them all talking, I could make out what was on tv and I was trying so hard to scream out for help, but they didnt even notice me. The best way to describe it is...well have you ever seen or heard those stories about people waking up during surgery and they feel the pain, but they can do nothing but take it? I feel for all those guys. Its similer to that.
So now they have progressed a little more. For instance last night I was sleeping on my side and I woke up paralysed, and I was freaking out, trying to stay calm. My head was downward and I could see my arms, I remember telling myself to move my arms, I figured if I can move my arms ill wake myself up. So I tell my self to move them, EVEN THOUGH THEY DONT MOVE PHYSICALLY, MY BRAIN GIVES OFF THE SENSATION TO MY NERVES THAT THEY ARE!!! i EVEN HIT MY SELF IN THE FACE!!! NEUROLOGICLY FEELING IT !!! BUT MY ARMS NEVER MOVED!!! No shit, I have even had it fell like I rolled of the bed and hit the ground. BUT I WAS STILL THERE DIDNT MOVE! It creeps me the fuck out. Its getting to the point where I am scared shitless to go to sleep. I only slept 2 hours last night! So I have been refered today to the UW sleep center program for testing, by my doctor, but now im in a catch22 I hate doctors, and testing ecspecally if there gonna treat me like a lab rat. But I am also afraid to sleep.

Heres some info on if from wikipedia they explain it pretty well and more mediclly speaking termsSleep Paraylisis