somedays I wonder if I'll ever get my life togeather...I spent worried about things I cant fix and all I want to do is forget....I have this overwhelming feeling that no one really cares about me...most of all me...I don't have anything to look forward to anymore...it hard to go on like that....I mean I knoe life sapoat to be hard but it wasn't alwas...will...
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ok so thursday right....I woke up at about 4/5pm ish and had to be in bed by 12/1am ish...such a short day but man did it suck...bad times with the ex....after about an hour of fighting I really though we had something...like maybe we where going to get a little better and I would think it was a good idea to be talking to her....then...
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for those of you that don't know...I HATE HALLOWEEN!!!
its alwas the worst day of the year...like on year watched one of my firends get hit and kill by a drunk driver while crossing the street....its just tradition...ever year it fucking suck....so I get a call at 6:30am...from my mom...she just wanted to talk and all..oh ya...and SHE HAD FUCKING CANCER!!!! this is news to...
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its alwas the worst day of the year...like on year watched one of my firends get hit and kill by a drunk driver while crossing the street....its just tradition...ever year it fucking suck....so I get a call at 6:30am...from my mom...she just wanted to talk and all..oh ya...and SHE HAD FUCKING CANCER!!!! this is news to...
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ok so....where do start....I went to get some new holes today..I ended up getting 5 when I had planned on getting 3...I now have my nose (a second 16g hoop side by side) a 14 in my lip (hoop center) a 10g in right earlob, and I wasn't planning on it but I got my nipples....ya I know I'm not really one for getting stuff...
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so today was pay day and the end of the week....kinda still have a half overtime shift to work tonight...I went over tot he paint buliding at work on lunch tonight so see a firends...and they we're asking me about trasfuring....ya it would kindfa change my shifts and everything btu I would get something like $5 more an hour....is it time for a change?? we'll...
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so I spent friday at dinner and a movie...had a really good time...
movies I watched this weekend: corpse bride, land of the dead, batman begains, steamboy, and duel to the death
got my honda back from the guy who was going to do my motor swap and instead just took the motor and the money and left me with nothing.....ya well they left the...
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movies I watched this weekend: corpse bride, land of the dead, batman begains, steamboy, and duel to the death
got my honda back from the guy who was going to do my motor swap and instead just took the motor and the money and left me with nothing.....ya well they left the...
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jodi_marie:
You are just too damn cute! 
I hate my life....I never get a fresh start and I don't think things are ever going to chance...atleast for the better and save all that everydays a new day crap...its not helping....no one knows I've changed over night...no one cares they all just see more for who I am and not who I am trying to be.....all I can do is be negative all...
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curiosity:
If you continue to hate yourself then other people are gonna hate you. It's just that simple.
Curi.
Curi.
I know another update already....well I don't have anything left to do with my self.....everyday feels like I just wake up and have to live untell I go to bed...nothing to do no point nothing to live for and just plan empty....I don't think I've ever felt this invisable and hollow....depressions so bad I'm getting really sick....I honistly think I'm losing my mind....some weird shit...
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mrbeast:
Totally unrelated, what do you do in fiberglass? I have worked with it a good deal myself.
mrbeast:
I did some of it while I was in the navy, just basic layup, plug and mold making is all, helped a friend build an airplane that was cool.
I also started on a custom hood for my camaro, but it has been parked for a while since that whole running my own company thing has been sort of standing in the way...
I also started on a custom hood for my camaro, but it has been parked for a while since that whole running my own company thing has been sort of standing in the way...
ok so my intention was to get totaly shit faced last night...I gave up one beer into it...I am currently having a panic attack and typing is very hard....when I get them I get them bad I feel like I'm dieing....I'm in bad shape and I know that...I'm fucked up bad right now....I spent the day hanging out with a new friend...shes really cool and...
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sunniapocalypse:
im terrified of losing people i love.
however the person isnt even man enough to call me and tell me he doesnt want to be with me. He deleted his suicide girls. I get nothing. Not even a text message to say its over.
however the person isnt even man enough to call me and tell me he doesnt want to be with me. He deleted his suicide girls. I get nothing. Not even a text message to say its over.
so where do I begain?? I wasn't going to do this because of eyes that mights see it and think it to piss them off...well fuck it who cares I need this for me...I never show emotion so...like I said fuck it
self worth: how am I sapost to feel good about my self when a to year relations ends with he leaving me for...
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I would like to thank everyone who thinks I'm an asshole because they know one side of a story...I'm not asking for anykind of replay from these people and they know who they are but this is drama I did not start or ask for...you want to hate me fine....but know you don't know a damn thing...aske her your self
redwildflower:
He lives in Fresno which is like 10 min from me. Hopefully he'll just go away now. *sigh* Boyz !
Wow, bad break up huh. I hate that. One person is always blammed and in reality most of the time it's both parties fault or no ones fault. So ridiculous! It's none of their business anyway. Just tell them to fuck off!
I don't hate you.
Wow, bad break up huh. I hate that. One person is always blammed and in reality most of the time it's both parties fault or no ones fault. So ridiculous! It's none of their business anyway. Just tell them to fuck off!
I don't hate you.
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nonameninja:
take it easy kitten...you the one that ones someone else
jodi_marie:
Ok you know what, I don't want to have some fight over the internet. I want to talk to you about things, and I don't want you to just walk away. So I guess at this point all I can do is hope you will talk to me.