nonabear

I miss the physical contact I miss the one night I had with one of my friends more, talking, him playing with my hair, massaging cramp out of my leg. Opening up to someone for the first time. P wasnt good at things like that.

But then I miss waking up & curling up into someone. Feeling safe. Not been told off for sprawling. The smell of them. Warmth.

Im not going to miss being told off when Im having a nightmare (they happen often), being told to grow up. Having the light switched on when Im asleep

Things are changing & I dont know if Ill cope to well

I seem to have gone off on a tangent Sorry all X