Allo,
I have just been looking around the SG world here and then decided to update. I realize now that I don't have anything to update on. Here is nonsense prolly of no interest to anyone other than me.
I have been trying my hardest for over three months now to patch things up with my recent ex, who I see nearly daily and watch her daughter for free at least four days a week. Things just stopped with her and for no given reason. She has since been on new medication and has a habit of treating me like shit but still with a redeeming quality that keeps me liking her. It is a bad place for me to be (being unstable myself). She is my date for a friends wedding tomorrow and I have been trying to make sure that I look nice for her, but even if I did, I doubt she would notice. I think I might be using the situation as more of a source of inspiration for me than anything else. Bad.
I have been playing medium difficulty spider solitaire a lot lately. I am not yet brave enough for difficult.
I am becoming very sexually frustrated. I can hug and hold my ex but if anything gets even remotely near a situation of physical, she becomes a demon and yells and I feel horrible. The erections of pain don't feel good either.
I plan on drinking a good deal tomorrow. I am a very nervous person by nature and need a drink or two to loosen up enough to talk or even look up from my feet.
I hate shaving. It is painful and is needed to be done daily to please most of the women I have been with. No matter the razor, sharpness of blade, shaving cream, lather, after shave, it all ends up bad.
Here is a list of the top fifteen songs for this past week (in no particular order):
01. The Blood Brothers "Pink Tarantulas"
02. Christy Moore "Sacco & Vanzetti"
03. Erlend ye "Symptom Of Disease (w Mr Velcro)"
04. Franz Josef Degenhardt "Sacco Und Vanzetti"
05. Eve "Love Is Blind"
06. The Hideen Cameras "Smells Like Happiness"
07. Lemon Jelly "Spacewalk"
08. Mew "Her Voice Is Beyond Her Years"
09. The Pogues "Fairy Tale Of New York"
10. Slick Rick "Children's Story"
11. Snoop Dogg "Beautiful (w Pharrell)"
12. Tears For Fear "Everybody Wants To Rule The World"
13. Tori Amos "Happy Workers"
14. Tracy Chapman "Fast Car"
15. Van Morrison "Everyone"
A semi decent mx pulled from off my computer. A reason for each I suppose, even as simple as a single lyric.
Well, I need to get washed up for bed and then the wedding later today. I still have to finish my laundry so I have clean nice smelling clothes to wear. I need also to vacuum out my car to make sure neither my date or myself walk in covered in white cat or dog hair.
I just want tomorrow to be nice for everyone, I need something good right now.
Cheers.
I have just been looking around the SG world here and then decided to update. I realize now that I don't have anything to update on. Here is nonsense prolly of no interest to anyone other than me.
I have been trying my hardest for over three months now to patch things up with my recent ex, who I see nearly daily and watch her daughter for free at least four days a week. Things just stopped with her and for no given reason. She has since been on new medication and has a habit of treating me like shit but still with a redeeming quality that keeps me liking her. It is a bad place for me to be (being unstable myself). She is my date for a friends wedding tomorrow and I have been trying to make sure that I look nice for her, but even if I did, I doubt she would notice. I think I might be using the situation as more of a source of inspiration for me than anything else. Bad.
I have been playing medium difficulty spider solitaire a lot lately. I am not yet brave enough for difficult.
I am becoming very sexually frustrated. I can hug and hold my ex but if anything gets even remotely near a situation of physical, she becomes a demon and yells and I feel horrible. The erections of pain don't feel good either.
I plan on drinking a good deal tomorrow. I am a very nervous person by nature and need a drink or two to loosen up enough to talk or even look up from my feet.
I hate shaving. It is painful and is needed to be done daily to please most of the women I have been with. No matter the razor, sharpness of blade, shaving cream, lather, after shave, it all ends up bad.
Here is a list of the top fifteen songs for this past week (in no particular order):
01. The Blood Brothers "Pink Tarantulas"
02. Christy Moore "Sacco & Vanzetti"
03. Erlend ye "Symptom Of Disease (w Mr Velcro)"
04. Franz Josef Degenhardt "Sacco Und Vanzetti"
05. Eve "Love Is Blind"
06. The Hideen Cameras "Smells Like Happiness"
07. Lemon Jelly "Spacewalk"
08. Mew "Her Voice Is Beyond Her Years"
09. The Pogues "Fairy Tale Of New York"
10. Slick Rick "Children's Story"
11. Snoop Dogg "Beautiful (w Pharrell)"
12. Tears For Fear "Everybody Wants To Rule The World"
13. Tori Amos "Happy Workers"
14. Tracy Chapman "Fast Car"
15. Van Morrison "Everyone"
A semi decent mx pulled from off my computer. A reason for each I suppose, even as simple as a single lyric.
Well, I need to get washed up for bed and then the wedding later today. I still have to finish my laundry so I have clean nice smelling clothes to wear. I need also to vacuum out my car to make sure neither my date or myself walk in covered in white cat or dog hair.
I just want tomorrow to be nice for everyone, I need something good right now.
Cheers.
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i agree.. playing on 'difficult' is almost pointless.