check out Clare's journal, it's much more interesting.
raindrops on roses and whiskers on thistles. today has been a deceptive day, the weather looked so good i went out in jeans, vest and flipflops. by lunch i was freezing and resorted to hiding in the chemists' buying rehydration powder. i dont have the shits but i might do one day...
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raindrops on roses and whiskers on thistles. today has been a deceptive day, the weather looked so good i went out in jeans, vest and flipflops. by lunch i was freezing and resorted to hiding in the chemists' buying rehydration powder. i dont have the shits but i might do one day...
i can feel getting depressed...
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did the prescriptions thing this morning. had this crazy experience on waking whereby i was dreaming that these kids were taunting me and blading round me on the street, so i said i could blade just as well as them. they gave me a pair and i put them on and we started racing. this was open terrain and as we accelerated we drew near...
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learoy:
noir eh?
you had me flumaxed then , i didn't recognise you.
its the hair you see.
LOVE the hair.
hows things going for you now?
i like your entry, made me laugh
i think its the bladers,
with me bein one and all.
i think bath plugs have ALWAYS been universal,
i can't think of ever seeing small or large plugs,
suppose you could lose a toe or even a young child
if it was a large enough plug. ha
i wish i could get my girlfriend to wear hotpants.
they gotta be the sexiest item of clothing there is.
but alas, she won't, because of womens fucking size issue.
who gives a fuck.
shes a size 16 too, and she's fucking hot,
but all she thinks about is how fat she thinks she looks.
my big pet hate.
good luck with the painters
you had me flumaxed then , i didn't recognise you.
its the hair you see.
LOVE the hair.
hows things going for you now?
i like your entry, made me laugh
i think its the bladers,
with me bein one and all.
i think bath plugs have ALWAYS been universal,
i can't think of ever seeing small or large plugs,
suppose you could lose a toe or even a young child
if it was a large enough plug. ha
i wish i could get my girlfriend to wear hotpants.
they gotta be the sexiest item of clothing there is.
but alas, she won't, because of womens fucking size issue.
who gives a fuck.
shes a size 16 too, and she's fucking hot,
but all she thinks about is how fat she thinks she looks.
my big pet hate.
good luck with the painters
traumatron:
ah. My housemate kerrie has the snot too.
I feel your pain.
It really is nice to have you back you know. Getting a new name fixes up your brain sometimes doesnt it? Hey, ive got pics now too. go and look.
woo!
I feel your pain.
It really is nice to have you back you know. Getting a new name fixes up your brain sometimes doesnt it? Hey, ive got pics now too. go and look.
woo!
spiders are where its at. i have seen three really photogenic spiders this week and only one time was a camera in reach but it was in my toilet and i made it move when i flushed the chain coz the plumbing is so busted it seriously makes a noise like the minions of hell are rising. busted. but they are so the next big...
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kattaryna:
oohhhhhhh... tell me more more more of who you are.
i'm afraid i might just get a crush on you!
i'm afraid i might just get a crush on you!
kingbugs:
welcome back
She's not the kind of girl
Who likes to tell the world
About the way she feels about herself
She takes a little time in making up her mind
She doesn't want to fight against the tide
And lately I'm not the only one
I say never trust anyone
Always the one who has to drag her down
Maybe you'll get what you want this...
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Who likes to tell the world
About the way she feels about herself
She takes a little time in making up her mind
She doesn't want to fight against the tide
And lately I'm not the only one
I say never trust anyone
Always the one who has to drag her down
Maybe you'll get what you want this...
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Aren't you such a catch?
What a prize! Got a body like a battle
axe... Love that perfect frown, honest eyes...
We ought to buy you a Cadillac.
And now for something Completely Different.
I was right I managed to cure most of my illnessness by ignoring it and drinking lots of tea. peppermint natch. i'm going to learn how to use my fabby new...
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What a prize! Got a body like a battle
axe... Love that perfect frown, honest eyes...
We ought to buy you a Cadillac.
And now for something Completely Different.
I was right I managed to cure most of my illnessness by ignoring it and drinking lots of tea. peppermint natch. i'm going to learn how to use my fabby new...
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kinto:
I saw foxes twice when I was living in Wood Green (London). Coming out of nowhere, enjoying a late night walk on the High Road...!
K
PS: Drinking is totally working when it comes to curing colds & sore throats ! It disinfects & makes you numb, so that the pain doesn't really matter. Side effects: shotguns your liver & leaves no brain cell alive
K
PS: Drinking is totally working when it comes to curing colds & sore throats ! It disinfects & makes you numb, so that the pain doesn't really matter. Side effects: shotguns your liver & leaves no brain cell alive
i'm ill.
it is a really gay ill which i've not had before but 2 of my workmates have so tis blatantly their fault. what it feels like is your stomach is constantly wishing it had an eject button and your throat is all tight but aching with catarrh or however it is spelt stopping you swallow properly, it makes your eyes and ears ache...
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it is a really gay ill which i've not had before but 2 of my workmates have so tis blatantly their fault. what it feels like is your stomach is constantly wishing it had an eject button and your throat is all tight but aching with catarrh or however it is spelt stopping you swallow properly, it makes your eyes and ears ache...
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where am i at? people still message me who i never met. why am i still on this site? i like to keep my options open i guess. i can always appreciate goodlookin' womenfolk...
just got back from cardiff working at the new store and i need to write on here because nobody i know reads it anymore, i moved to a darker corner of...
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just got back from cardiff working at the new store and i need to write on here because nobody i know reads it anymore, i moved to a darker corner of...
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grooverider:
well hello there!
long time no see, or hear, or email...
glad to know you're ok.
east coast huh? you should come say hi!
G.
long time no see, or hear, or email...
glad to know you're ok.
east coast huh? you should come say hi!
G.
nickysonic:
Hello! Back with us 
Clare, i feel i am letting you down with this lack of correspondance. i haven't even spoken to you in 2 weeks which is pretty appalling really. Apologies. I'm afraid this entry, rather than bringing you up to date on all the perilous adventures and thrilling enterprises i've seen my way through in the last month, i want to tell you for a bit...
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learoy:
your dude looks so much better with his new mop.
well done
can i book an appiontment for the 15th?
well done
can i book an appiontment for the 15th?
grooverider:
70 MPH. Half a tank of gas.
Youre Ok- Youre ALIVE
Laura kept repeating these four words, like a mantra.
Her hands gripped the wheel of the old jeep until her knuckles became white.
Youre Alive
She had been driving for a few hours through the rain forest- it was hard to tell exactly. She wasnt even aware of where she was heading. In her rear-view mirror she could still see the smoke coming up from the now demolished research lab. As far as she knew- she was the only survivor- Her peers were probably all dead. She would have been dead too, if it wasnt for the maintenance tunnels underneath the telescope. Being the youngest scientist, Laura was often sent to fix wires, take readings, and most recently- place some mouse traps underneath along the dark cement corridors. What the three strange men did not notice when they searched the telescopes control room was the slightly open ventilation shaft, out of which Laura had made her escape. Down through the tunnels and out a small and hardly used service entrance she went, holding her laptop under her arm, her heart racing with adrenaline and fear.
It was time for a damage assessment.
She was miles away from civilization and had no means of communication.
Well- there was her laptop and the jeeps computer, which together allowed her to transmit a very powerful radio signal.
To outer space.
Great! This was just Fucking Great!
She had no doubt that the men back at the lab were after her. Well- perhaps not her personally, but there was no doubt in her mind it had to do with the intercepted message. Wait a minute- Were they MEN?!? They certainly didnt seem normal- she managed a quick peek before descending the ladder into the tunnels. They were all really tall, and had a very strange shape to their heads. Not that it mattered at this point- she was alone in the jungle, with few provisions and no weapons.
Laura turned the wheel sharply and stopped her jeep in a small clearing. She had to stop for a second and compose herself.
Along with the sudden silence came the shock of recent events. Laura could feel her eyes starting to water- this was not what she had signed up for! She wasnt looking for THIS kind of excitement- she was a Scientist for god sake- not some science-fiction hero!
-=-=-=-=-=Beep=-=-=-=-=-
She wanted to go home- enough with this nightmare
-=-=-=-=-=Beep=-=-=-=-=-
Lauras eyes slowly turned to her laptop.
-=-=-=-=-=Beep=-=-=-=-=-
The communication unit was still operating- now that it was locked onto the correct coordinates, it didnt need the telescope anymore- it was receiving signals from one of their satellites.
The space guy. He was all she had right now.
Laura wiped her eyes and opened the computer- the same SOS message came up.
SHE was all he had as well.
Two stranded life forms.
It was getting dark. Laura decided to stay in the vehicle for the night. They would be looking for her- she had a pretty good feeling about that. She busied herself camouflaging the jeep with small branches and large leaves until no one could tell it from a jeep buried under rain forest vegetation.
Once inside she turned her attention to her computer- She typed a quick reply:
=#=#=#=Message Intercepted=#=#=#=
=#=#=#Who are you?=#=#=#
She had no idea what was the proper SOS procedure, or if the person (person? Thing?) up there would even understand English. They DID speak English in all those movies didnt they?
It suddenly dawned on her that although her mind was racing, she was physically exhausted- She had to sleep, if only for a little while.
Youre Ok- Youre ALIVE
Laura kept repeating these four words, like a mantra.
Her hands gripped the wheel of the old jeep until her knuckles became white.
Youre Alive
She had been driving for a few hours through the rain forest- it was hard to tell exactly. She wasnt even aware of where she was heading. In her rear-view mirror she could still see the smoke coming up from the now demolished research lab. As far as she knew- she was the only survivor- Her peers were probably all dead. She would have been dead too, if it wasnt for the maintenance tunnels underneath the telescope. Being the youngest scientist, Laura was often sent to fix wires, take readings, and most recently- place some mouse traps underneath along the dark cement corridors. What the three strange men did not notice when they searched the telescopes control room was the slightly open ventilation shaft, out of which Laura had made her escape. Down through the tunnels and out a small and hardly used service entrance she went, holding her laptop under her arm, her heart racing with adrenaline and fear.
It was time for a damage assessment.
She was miles away from civilization and had no means of communication.
Well- there was her laptop and the jeeps computer, which together allowed her to transmit a very powerful radio signal.
To outer space.
Great! This was just Fucking Great!
She had no doubt that the men back at the lab were after her. Well- perhaps not her personally, but there was no doubt in her mind it had to do with the intercepted message. Wait a minute- Were they MEN?!? They certainly didnt seem normal- she managed a quick peek before descending the ladder into the tunnels. They were all really tall, and had a very strange shape to their heads. Not that it mattered at this point- she was alone in the jungle, with few provisions and no weapons.
Laura turned the wheel sharply and stopped her jeep in a small clearing. She had to stop for a second and compose herself.
Along with the sudden silence came the shock of recent events. Laura could feel her eyes starting to water- this was not what she had signed up for! She wasnt looking for THIS kind of excitement- she was a Scientist for god sake- not some science-fiction hero!
-=-=-=-=-=Beep=-=-=-=-=-
She wanted to go home- enough with this nightmare
-=-=-=-=-=Beep=-=-=-=-=-
Lauras eyes slowly turned to her laptop.
-=-=-=-=-=Beep=-=-=-=-=-
The communication unit was still operating- now that it was locked onto the correct coordinates, it didnt need the telescope anymore- it was receiving signals from one of their satellites.
The space guy. He was all she had right now.
Laura wiped her eyes and opened the computer- the same SOS message came up.
SHE was all he had as well.
Two stranded life forms.
It was getting dark. Laura decided to stay in the vehicle for the night. They would be looking for her- she had a pretty good feeling about that. She busied herself camouflaging the jeep with small branches and large leaves until no one could tell it from a jeep buried under rain forest vegetation.
Once inside she turned her attention to her computer- She typed a quick reply:
=#=#=#=Message Intercepted=#=#=#=
=#=#=#Who are you?=#=#=#
She had no idea what was the proper SOS procedure, or if the person (person? Thing?) up there would even understand English. They DID speak English in all those movies didnt they?
It suddenly dawned on her that although her mind was racing, she was physically exhausted- She had to sleep, if only for a little while.
apologies to my CLAREY for my general shitness re: oxford, the going to. basically trains are busted and i'm just not that good at ice-skating. i'm sorry my sweet. i will make it up to you when the weather has sorted its bloody idiot self out. thankyou.
local updates: went to the company christmas do [yes yes interesting interpretation of christmas i do realise] tragically...
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_v_:
snow?
what is snow?
i'm not familiar with that word.
i want to be an elf too
what is snow?
i'm not familiar with that word.
i want to be an elf too
hatefulerin:
god bless twin peaks.
wow Clare!! Guess what wondrous eventuality occurred while i whiled away the days with Mark in France??
That's right, i went to see the re-scored rendition ofLaputa...in french mind you! but still, how amazing that that was one of the first entries in your journal and now i can return the gesture by explaining precisely HOW thrilled i am that a) rob was...
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That's right, i went to see the re-scored rendition ofLaputa...in french mind you! but still, how amazing that that was one of the first entries in your journal and now i can return the gesture by explaining precisely HOW thrilled i am that a) rob was...
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grooverider:
actually, you are. (the heroine that is...)
you have to take it from here- i only set up the beginning...
(see holdensolo's journal for inspiration)
G.
you have to take it from here- i only set up the beginning...
(see holdensolo's journal for inspiration)
G.
grooverider:
Laura could not believe her eyes- the damn thing was actually beeping! She was on to something- a voice from outer space! It matched her calculations- this method of communication was beyond any currently used- even in her mind it was only theoretical- but there it was!
Her eyes shifted to the location simulator- it would take 5 more seconds to locate the source- 5(she was holding her breath) 4(this was beyond her wildest dreams) 3(what this would mean to the world!) 2 (life would never be the same again! 1
But what the- Laura couldnt believe it- the transmission was sent from outside the solar system! Theyre right here!
She could feel a rush of adrenalin starting to build and found it hard to breath.
Lighting a cigarette with a trembling hand she pondered the consequences. No one said theyll come in peace- there were certainly enough films that kept suggesting the opposite
A message appeared on the screen-
-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-
,sufsu ,sufsu
fprd smupmr vp[u?
yjod od yrvjmovs; drthrsmy htppbrtofrt- ,u djo[ esd syysvlrd- o s, eoyjpiy vpptfomsyrd/
og upi jrst yjod= [;rsdr trd[pmf yp gtrwirmvu 3957ccy =
od yjrtr smupmr piy yjrtr?
=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=
It was obviously encrypted.
Her mind was racing- she was simultaneously examining a few courses of action.
Like a seasoned chess player, invisibly conducting endless hypothetical games- each presented its own consequence- Pros and cons, actions and reactions.
She couldnt tell them- that was for sure.
Theyd mess the whole thing up, and shell be on the first plane out of here with their explanations still echoing in her head-It wasnt a message we were experiencing some interferencesits all your imagination
No- shell tackle this one herself.
At least until she deciphered the message.
Right.
Now- how the hell would she accomplish that?!?
Her eyes shifted to the location simulator- it would take 5 more seconds to locate the source- 5(she was holding her breath) 4(this was beyond her wildest dreams) 3(what this would mean to the world!) 2 (life would never be the same again! 1
But what the- Laura couldnt believe it- the transmission was sent from outside the solar system! Theyre right here!
She could feel a rush of adrenalin starting to build and found it hard to breath.
Lighting a cigarette with a trembling hand she pondered the consequences. No one said theyll come in peace- there were certainly enough films that kept suggesting the opposite
A message appeared on the screen-
-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-
,sufsu ,sufsu
fprd smupmr vp[u?
yjod od yrvjmovs; drthrsmy htppbrtofrt- ,u djo[ esd syysvlrd- o s, eoyjpiy vpptfomsyrd/
og upi jrst yjod= [;rsdr trd[pmf yp gtrwirmvu 3957ccy =
od yjrtr smupmr piy yjrtr?
=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=
It was obviously encrypted.
Her mind was racing- she was simultaneously examining a few courses of action.
Like a seasoned chess player, invisibly conducting endless hypothetical games- each presented its own consequence- Pros and cons, actions and reactions.
She couldnt tell them- that was for sure.
Theyd mess the whole thing up, and shell be on the first plane out of here with their explanations still echoing in her head-It wasnt a message we were experiencing some interferencesits all your imagination
No- shell tackle this one herself.
At least until she deciphered the message.
Right.
Now- how the hell would she accomplish that?!?
Wheeee I'm off to Le Touquet en France pour un petit vacance avec Mark lorsque dimanche! haha and already i've forgotton my french vocab and grammar, damn me. i'm really excited though, i get to use my parents apartment on my own woohoo!! france rocks. will come see you next week Clare. glad you're feeling better but best not call me til sunday or i'll...
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jacksin:
....Lynch's idea was to make a third season of Twin Peaks but due to pressures from producers this did not happen. This is why so many things were left uncertain in the last episode. Upon entering the Black Lodge, those who have crossed over are forced to confront their doppelganger. Those who are strong willed enough to defeat their doppelganger are then allowed to progress to the White Lodge, i.e. to return to Twin Peaks. In the words of Hawk: My people believe that the White Lodge is a place where the spirits that rule man and nature reside. There is also a legend of a place called the Black Lodge the shadow self of the White Lodge. The legend says that every spirit must pass through there on the way to perfection. There, you will meet your own shadow self But it is said, if you confront the Black Lodge with imperfect courage, it will utterly annihilate your soul. Here we run into an apparent contradiction. Agent Cooper clearly fails in the confrontation with his doppelganger, and is not allowed to progress to the White Lodge. Instead, his evil side is introduced into the world and an extra piece is made available for the Black Lodge. But Cooper's soul is not destroyed: in Fire Walk With Me Annie tells Laura: The good Dale is in the lodge. Cooper has clearly not been annihilated in the way in which we see Leland perish. We see him bleeding, so clearly he was attacked but not completely defeated. As a compromise, I believe the Man From Another Place imprisoned him in the Red Room, never allowed to return to the physical world but not utterly destroyed either. Annie uses the phrase, the Lodge and not the White Lodge or the Black Lodge because the Red Room is the sole point of interaction between the White and Black Lodges, and is thus all that remains of the Lodge, the single plane which existed before the schism....can you dig it??? One of Lynch's main images for Twin Peaks is the traffic light, alone in the night, changing color. It is red (as is the White/Black Lodge) and yellow (as are the interiors of the Ben Horne's majestic hotel where many scenes take place) and green (as are the woods of Twin Peaks). It is all these colors, but we define it by the color of the light shining through it. We say, "the light's red," or "Go, it's green." But a traffic light has all of those colors. We only talk about the light currently shining. Fire Walk With Me should be coming out on dvd soon and I read somewhere that it will contain 90 mins. of footage cut from the original movie. Maybe then some more questions will be answered. Yeah Right, the extra scenes will probably make it more confusing and twisted.Talk 2 ya soon and have a blast in France. HEY IF YOU GET A CHANCE GO TO JIM MORRISON'S GRAVE SITE AT DU PERE-LACHAISE....AND GET ME A SNAPSHOT. PLEASE!!!! I LOVE YOU LONG TIME. c-ya ;9
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maelwys:
Have fun
Sorry people if this seems too exclusive but this is gonna be completely a Clarey pep talk entry!
ok, kudos on establishing that your current state of dissatisfaction is probably temporary and almost certainly hormonal. i know what you mean about integrating into friendship groups belatedly but bear in mind that's only hard as a group. if you do it on your own it'll be...
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ok, kudos on establishing that your current state of dissatisfaction is probably temporary and almost certainly hormonal. i know what you mean about integrating into friendship groups belatedly but bear in mind that's only hard as a group. if you do it on your own it'll be...
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euterpe:
Thanks for your sweet comments in my journal.
I always liked this name.. I'm glad someone finally recognised its origin. :]
xo
I always liked this name.. I'm glad someone finally recognised its origin. :]
xo
me:
bring it on kofka girl 
Personal thoughts on themes just going from your fave films etc. - Labyrinth, Sleepy Hollow and Lord of the Rings all give excelent dress up opportunities, which needn't be expensive.
While the Crow or Cyberpunk stuff (I am thinking William Gibson stylee) offer more up to date but still pretty dark options. I could certainly knock up a background and some props on the cheap. I also already have quite abit of stuff that could be used as props ready to go, knives, biker gear etc if you want go the more modern route.
What did you have in mind?