nocturnus

You know, I was thinking earlier, I suppose I should be upset by this:

"Shera said:
nigga what??? nigga who????
you're all assholes if me slangin nigga offends you....word"

Now, if you read my journal a couple of days back, you'll find mention that I said something in the boards that, in hindsight, I should not have said. I choose not to repeat it here, for fear I will violate the warning I was given by the SG mods. Suffice to say it hinted at the above racial slur.

Understand that what I intended with said post was misinterpreted, and easily so. A lot of my attempts at irony, humor, or simply making points, are so clouded that at times even I can not understand them, when coming upon them later. The post in question was like this, and since it hinted at a racial slur, it is easy to see why it was offensive.

In fact I know that I did offend at least one person, and apologized to her. She happens to be an SG. As I allude to above, I also recieved a warning from SG by e-mail.

So imagine how I feel now...seeing an SG throwing around terms like this on the board?

Understand, I take no issue with Shera. If you were to read the rest of the thread the above quote comes from, I think you would see that she's not trying to offend anyone. There are also a couple of dozen people tossing derogatory words around, etc.

My problem is as follows: the warning e-mail I received basically suggested that racism is a touchy subject and should be avoided altogether, or at least that is what I gathered from it. That in mind, does anyone see a double standard here? Especially when one considers that the mods are taking part in said conversation on the boards.

I'm not taking a shot at SG, or at the SGs, or anyone in particular. I just wish I knew which mod, or mods, handled my case so I could pose to them my concern. I rather feel like I've been slighted against. Of course, I do not know for a fact that no action was taken, but I assume not, since to my knowledge the entire thread in which I made my slip-up was deleted and this thread remains. I don't know if that is standard practice or not.

Perhaps I'm simply feeling apathetic this morning, but truthfully I'm not upset at the moment. I might be later if I think about this more, but right now I'm not.

I should make it clear, for the record, that this doesn't change how I feel about my post a few days ago. I said something that was so convoluted, the intent was indecipherable, and it offended people. Therefore I remain sincerely sorry for doing it. I just question why the current thread is now being allowed to run its course, when I was sanctioned for similar actions.

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