So, recently some of you have asked how things in my 'real life' are going.
As most of you know, in January I started really trying to get a handle on a serious depression that had lasted close to a year, and maybe longer. I was frustrated and increasingly angry, lashing out at people around me, and having a huge amount of trouble recovering from a horrible breakup last spring.
I've now been doing weekly therapy for three months, plus yoga a couple of times a week. I chose to forgo medication, as they all seem to have creepy side effects, so the most I've done is the standard St. John's Wort.
And I have to say, the difference is astounding. I still get freaky and depressed, and I still have nightmares and I still snap at people more than I like. But the depression has backed off enough that sometimes I don't even notice it for days at a time. And even when I do, it rarely floors me like it used to. I've even started using the therapy to be able to work on other things, like not losing my shit when I'm mad, and asking for things I want or need from people before I'm pissed off at not getting them. I want to go out again, at least some. I have some energy left at the end of the day. And, it seems to be steadily improving.
The relationship I was fucking way the Hell up because of all this is back on fairly steady ground. I finally feel like I have enough brain space to actually devote to a relationship, which is neat.
I'm actually looking forward to this coming year.
As most of you know, in January I started really trying to get a handle on a serious depression that had lasted close to a year, and maybe longer. I was frustrated and increasingly angry, lashing out at people around me, and having a huge amount of trouble recovering from a horrible breakup last spring.
I've now been doing weekly therapy for three months, plus yoga a couple of times a week. I chose to forgo medication, as they all seem to have creepy side effects, so the most I've done is the standard St. John's Wort.
And I have to say, the difference is astounding. I still get freaky and depressed, and I still have nightmares and I still snap at people more than I like. But the depression has backed off enough that sometimes I don't even notice it for days at a time. And even when I do, it rarely floors me like it used to. I've even started using the therapy to be able to work on other things, like not losing my shit when I'm mad, and asking for things I want or need from people before I'm pissed off at not getting them. I want to go out again, at least some. I have some energy left at the end of the day. And, it seems to be steadily improving.
The relationship I was fucking way the Hell up because of all this is back on fairly steady ground. I finally feel like I have enough brain space to actually devote to a relationship, which is neat.
I'm actually looking forward to this coming year.
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cassylee:
Even though I don't know you in "real life" I want you to know I think you are wonderful, and I'm sure so do a lot of other people. It may not mean a lot coming from someone who you've never met, but so many people love you. You seem to be such an awesome person and I hate to hear you were having a hard time. My advice: get a Buddha statue. Even if you are not Buddhist or if you practice another religion. I'm an atheist but I love Buddhist artwork and I picked up this nice Buddha head statue at a flea market and ever since I got it things in my life seem to be just getting better and better. Me and my man have been happy for 5 years and we're expecting our first child in September. And I'm not talking about fat Buddha, I'm talking about the traditional Buddha. Also my b/f is has severe depression. The only thing that works for him is weed.
loser138:
Nixon seeking help is the best step to take, and isn't always the easiest thing to do. I believe it was Aristotle who said " We cannot learn without pain" so these hard times will pass and though i don't personally know you, I gather that you are a strong person and just know that you will be stronger when you come through this 
