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Monday Mar 05, 2007

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check out my very delicious dinner:



it's philo bread, safflower oil, about half a teaspoon of coacoa, an orange bell pepper, goat cheese, and green onion. oh god it's good.

so, Palmer and I have lived together since she was seven weeks old. she is my furry daughter. when she was just a bitty little thing, she would come into the kitchen and beg while I was cooking. keep in mind that I lived on my own since I was 17 and I was vegan until I moved back in with my parents, who are atkins fanatics. (I'm kind of a free-gan now. kind of.) anyway, to stop her from begging, one day I decided to deter her by tossing her a grape tomato, thinking she wouldn't like it and would leave me alone. turns out she loves fruits and veggies. over the course of the three years she and I cooked together, I just started giving her the stuff that usually goes to compost, and she loves it. great.

well, I used green onions today, and my parents dogs, who have-- heh-- less developed palates decided that they wanted in on the action. Palmer chomped away on her green onion happily, but the other two spit theirs out. that is, until Palmer went sniffing at them. suddenly, they were interesting again! ha ha ha

it felt good to be back at work today. I'm useful at work. my role is defined there. some people made me really cranky, repeatedly referring to our customers as debtors (a pet peeve), and refusing to acknowledge my departmental transition. stuff I shouldn't let bother me, but today it just rubbed me wrong.

I've been sleeping alone going on three months. you'd think I'd be used to it by now. so badly I crave someone to lean into in the evenings when it's quiet and I'm winding down. so badly I crave waking up with the warmth of a loved one near me. if I wasn't so goddamn picky I guess that wouldn't be so difficult to achieve, you know? honestly, I could just say yes to this guy or the other but I know that wouldn't make me happy.

what blows me away is that when I was in college, I was single for a year a half-- no sex, no dates, no interest in romance whatsoever-- and I didn't struggle with it at all. I was really happy being single. I did just fine doing stuff on my own, and when I actually did get in a relationship I was annoyed with my sudden lack of time to myself.

what happened to me?

I guess it's a good thing we keep growing and changing, huh? anyway, I need to grab another piece of my psuedo-pizza.
VIEW 8 of 8 COMMENTS
dmac:
Mmmm, that looks fantasticly yummy. Do you deliver? wink
Mar 6, 2007
voxless:
My goodness. That pizza looks incredibly delicious.
Mar 6, 2007

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