nirbhao

So yeah, it was one year (well really 14 months ago, but still) that I got sicker to the point I couldn't handle it anymore. It was one day ok, then the next it was a downward spiral into the abyss of hell.

I know I will have surgery at some point. I hate surgery. Last time I had surgery I woke up out of it & couldn't see anything really without my glasses, but I looked to my left & right & saw rows & rows of people & I thought I was in the morgue. Then I had a full blown panic & asthma attack. It was horrible. I still get a creepy feeling that I am really dead thinking back to that. What if I am one of those ghosts you see in the movies that don't know they are dead?

I don't want to have surgery again... ever!

And all those kinds of meds made my depression worse. Made me calm in a zombie way like the horomones did this week. I just think that SSRI's are poisen to alot of people. They are really totally over prescribed.

ah..well, there are regular "thrill rides" and the water park there at CP too...altho i guess depending on what surgery it is you had those might be outa the picture too. besides, ya know ya wanna go meet the sexy cedar point fireman..lol