nirauan

so still managing to be angry and also fed up.

the boyf pissed me off majorly last night. im left wondering if its worth the hassle. the thought of being single again doesnt seem to bother me.

i dont really know what happened last night. no dancing. didnt drink all that much. nicky was talking to some ugly lecherous boy all night. there was noone...
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went to sheffield on friday and got work started on my tattoo, was not painful as expected which was a plus and it looks pretty. drove back home then drove al the way to scotland with the b/f cos he had a race. scotland is cold and wet and i was grumpy and bored. tomorrow i have to go to leeds for a course which...
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ohh woo-hoo today i am old. Spent last night throwing up and generally feeling like i wanted to die. This morning i felt no better - went to work and lasted til about 12:45, then i drove myself home being absolutely terrified that i was going to hurl all over my car. I think I love my car more than anything (yes that is super...
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last nite was fun. i managed to maintain a happy state of drunk, so i was mostly coherent at the end of the night, able to stand on my own, no sick and no tears. good for me. My friend james was out, which was good and he is moving back to hull shortly so i'll prob be able to see some more of him,...
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yesterday was an unhappy day for reasons i wont speak about. today i have been happier although extremely hungover. Was at a housewarming last night, did not know the people there, was too depressed to be sociable, the answer half a litre of vodka, 2 cans of sprite lite and a litre of cranberry juice. This resulted in a full highly traumatic guilt trip regarding...
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so you have me for about another month because i've cancelled my payment.

at the moment i dislike work intensely. i am 21 next monday, the thought of which is most unpleasant. being 20 has not been fun at all, part of me wishes i could rewind to this time last year, when everything seemed more or less hunkydory (or maybe it was crap and...
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note to self - do not get drunk when your feeling depressed (or at least hopeless), this course of action only leads to trouble i.e hiding in car parks.

i fully apologise to everyone i spoke to/shouted at/ ignored/ text or telephoned.

This week i made up for the lack of alcohol at the weekend. Stayed in and got (really) drunk on tuesday night. Went out and got drunk on wednesday night. Wednesday was ok i suppose i had a fight with someone my friend likes and i bit him serves him right for been an arrogant drunk annoying boy with wierd shoulders. Darren who i used...
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today i have no energy to be grumpy or angry. And nothing interesting has happened so its a very small update.

oooh me and my friend have been discussing going to leeds festival! yayness. Wanted to go last year but had a very problematic boy situation at the time (booo)

today i am fucking grumpy i have eaten a lot of chocolate which should make me happy, but no it just means i will definately have to join a gym.

I am far far too angry, what am i angry about?? i have nothing to be angry about - but i still have this urge to drive my car into a tree or a person,...
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Today I have acquired a new piercing - vertical clitoral hood. Probably the fastest least problematic piercing Ive ever had, rather a surreal experience though.

My adrenaline has now all disappeared, and I think I could be having a vodka craving im sure craving alcohol is a bad thing.