wishcast 8
(transposed from an inspired email)
"i never did believe in miracles/
but i've a feeling it's time to try/
i never did believe in the ways of magic/
but i'm beginning to wonder why"
- fleetwood mac, from "you make lovin' fun"
surely we were not put on this earth to be alone
and disoriented and miserable.
we see it in the animals....
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(transposed from an inspired email)
"i never did believe in miracles/
but i've a feeling it's time to try/
i never did believe in the ways of magic/
but i'm beginning to wonder why"
- fleetwood mac, from "you make lovin' fun"
surely we were not put on this earth to be alone
and disoriented and miserable.
we see it in the animals....
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_(is it any) wonder_
she will stretch her wings as they stiffen
the jewel is the pearl is her body
and
don't you crave adornment?
her arms wrapped around you, soft landings in her velvet?
isn't the mold that the sculptor used
so perfect for this one?
form fitting just so?
you'll see past this dust, then.
you'll just give things time.
soon, the gods...
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she will stretch her wings as they stiffen
the jewel is the pearl is her body
and
don't you crave adornment?
her arms wrapped around you, soft landings in her velvet?
isn't the mold that the sculptor used
so perfect for this one?
form fitting just so?
you'll see past this dust, then.
you'll just give things time.
soon, the gods...
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xaqary:
your endless-there is always so much here
sebadohsucker:
v-nice...
g o t m e o p e n
i can see it all now
they're going to rain through
they're going to parade through
i'm going to feel alone.
it's not your fault, but, rather,
my faultline.
my pattern 'cause i never take the shortcuts
or the night trains to my confidence.
i'm going to feel it, "missed my chance,"
not pert
or
girl...
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i can see it all now
they're going to rain through
they're going to parade through
i'm going to feel alone.
it's not your fault, but, rather,
my faultline.
my pattern 'cause i never take the shortcuts
or the night trains to my confidence.
i'm going to feel it, "missed my chance,"
not pert
or
girl...
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suoda:
i really enjoy your writing. your words speak an honesty that is magnificent. it is personal and it gives such insight. thanks for choosing SG to be your venue for verse.
hedy1:
"it's not your fault, but, rather,
my faultline. "
at least at the end of the day you're smiling.
deep breaths, remember how big the universe is, you are in no hurry. xox
my faultline. "
at least at the end of the day you're smiling.
deep breaths, remember how big the universe is, you are in no hurry. xox
"i always thought the way you talked was neat
and i dream that when you speak you speak to me
but you're always out of reach
and i can't control my speech
and i'm scared that when we meet
i'll wanna touch you"
- the catherine wheel, from "i want to touch you"
touch.you
someone needs to touch you where you live
somebody should really...
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and i dream that when you speak you speak to me
but you're always out of reach
and i can't control my speech
and i'm scared that when we meet
i'll wanna touch you"
- the catherine wheel, from "i want to touch you"
touch.you
someone needs to touch you where you live
somebody should really...
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leavemehere:
lovely writing yet again
i enjoyed the interview with ilya as well
good job
xoxo
i enjoyed the interview with ilya as well
good job
xoxo
hedy1:
recording equipment? you mean, like, one of those sony kids microphone dealies? 
"Floating like a smoke ring, / It cannot be regained.
Now it's touched, it's broken, /The taste just slips away.
The taste just slips away. / I just want to know.
I don't want to tell you, / What you want to know.
I don't want to tell you. "
-from "taste," by Ride
_taste slips_
you've gone delicious
and here i've lost all the...
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Now it's touched, it's broken, /The taste just slips away.
The taste just slips away. / I just want to know.
I don't want to tell you, / What you want to know.
I don't want to tell you. "
-from "taste," by Ride
_taste slips_
you've gone delicious
and here i've lost all the...
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hedy1:
"i wish that the weight of your lightness
would crush that of my night " = rock solid rightness! yeah. hey, once i wrote something like 'so when you can press lightness like i compress dark'. *nod*
hey, you ninji person or whatever you are, i listened to a song of yours and hot damn. hey this is a serious question, i want to sing with you. but i guess you don't know how i sing so it's not a fair question to ask. but i went to sleep that night and dreamt i was in a glass recording studio in the middle of a daisied field with a chick who smiled and felt comfortable in the sun. heh.
would crush that of my night " = rock solid rightness! yeah. hey, once i wrote something like 'so when you can press lightness like i compress dark'. *nod*
hey, you ninji person or whatever you are, i listened to a song of yours and hot damn. hey this is a serious question, i want to sing with you.
but i guess you don't know how i sing so it's not a fair question to ask. but i went to sleep that night and dreamt i was in a glass recording studio in the middle of a daisied field with a chick who smiled and felt comfortable in the sun. heh.
leavemehere:
such good writing
jealous yet again
im going to ilya this coming friday
the 14th
someone should go with me
jealous yet again
im going to ilya this coming friday
the 14th
someone should go with me
wishcast. 7.
remember what it was like? i'd stay up because i could not sleep. all my clothes set aside, notebook filled with sketches, homework dilligently done (no matter if i'd made it perfect, up 'till 3 am.
i was in sixth grade. i was calling you.
waiting for you to take me, tender. pictured you. somewhat blurry. older. always a smile. a soft repose....
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remember what it was like? i'd stay up because i could not sleep. all my clothes set aside, notebook filled with sketches, homework dilligently done (no matter if i'd made it perfect, up 'till 3 am.
i was in sixth grade. i was calling you.
waiting for you to take me, tender. pictured you. somewhat blurry. older. always a smile. a soft repose....
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ericj:
Small boy logic is preferable sometimes.
sebadohsucker:
going to coachella?
c r u s h v. 3.0
you hold my heart all delicate
and make me think of faraway dreams
my river reverberates
for you
and you don't even know
in the best kind of way
how sweet
so much
i adore you
things
i think about them all
my windmills start to blow
i'm not tongue tied about it anymore
'cause i know how...
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you hold my heart all delicate
and make me think of faraway dreams
my river reverberates
for you
and you don't even know
in the best kind of way
how sweet
so much
i adore you
things
i think about them all
my windmills start to blow
i'm not tongue tied about it anymore
'cause i know how...
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ninji:
gah! yeah, this poem's for a zillion people (on rotation like CDs). okay, i exaggerate. more like a handful.
blixasinister:
nice. let me know when v3.1 comes out too.
everybody's such a daffodil here. i'll continue to post organically as the spirit moves, hedy (else cheesefactor sets in).
ah, i can dream. i'm a good dreamer. tonight i'll be tussling and snuggling and cooing in my dreams.
ah, i can dream. i'm a good dreamer. tonight i'll be tussling and snuggling and cooing in my dreams.
fallen1carus:
i looooove dreams. mine are always so complicated and just weird. one of these days i'm going to have to email you some of them. i write them down most of the time. for a while i was hell bent on interpreting them... what the hell is going on in my subconscious? i gave up, because i don't know how anyone could make sense of it.
you're so cool. oh goddamn, i'm drunk and shit. but i really enjoy hearing from you... so much insight and depth.... it's awesome. wish you were here. i'd like to talk for hours.
it suddenly hits me... i'm in cali the 15th-21st on vacation! what do you think?
you're so cool. oh goddamn, i'm drunk and shit. but i really enjoy hearing from you... so much insight and depth.... it's awesome. wish you were here. i'd like to talk for hours.
it suddenly hits me... i'm in cali the 15th-21st on vacation! what do you think?
dr_knownothing:
pshaw ninji you makin me blush and all whatnot...i really ain't know much, i just take it easy and sleazy, wu-wei baby, wu-wei.
WISHCAST 6
i had a feeling the fuck/snuggle/buddy deal would get some diverse feedback, after i posted and had time to think about it. that's okay. they really ARE the same thing.
to me it's all about choice. comfort. relating. how in the HELL would i feel comfy w/someone if i have a basic trepidation around people? i mean, hello--that ain't a recipe for a...
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i had a feeling the fuck/snuggle/buddy deal would get some diverse feedback, after i posted and had time to think about it. that's okay. they really ARE the same thing.
to me it's all about choice. comfort. relating. how in the HELL would i feel comfy w/someone if i have a basic trepidation around people? i mean, hello--that ain't a recipe for a...
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dr_knownothing:
oho hohhoh! my wish came tru! sketchy loud upstairs neighbor folk moved out! whoohoo! the truck pulled up and i got all excited and spied and sure enough...gone! i wanted to go out and offer to help just to get them out a little faster. it's peaceful here now. so mentally i'm channeling my positive wish come true energy on in your direction, maybe it'll help. as far as the whole snuggle/fuck buddy thiing goes...i've had both at different times and at the same time and various other permutations of that realtionship...it can work...it's tricky though...just take each moment as it comes and follow your happiness wherever it takes you...peace
rawr_ima_monster:
I can't believe Imissed the snugglebuddy post. I'm all about a snuggle buddy. I don't think the emotional physicality of being is that unpopular around here, but I'm certainl more focused on that than the doing. I'm definitely feeling you on what you're saying about the "idea of sex" and that whole having/exercising desire thing.
-It's unfortunate you're all the way down there, I'd snuggle with you for an indefinite period of time, and I'm all about your isness.
Dave
-It's unfortunate you're all the way down there, I'd snuggle with you for an indefinite period of time, and I'm all about your isness.
Dave
Wishcast 5
I desire a snugglebuddy. Not a FUCKbuddy. I don't think I'm mature enough to handle a fuckbuddy. I don't think I ever was.
Will be, but not is,
or was.
I desire a snugglebuddy. Not a FUCKbuddy. I don't think I'm mature enough to handle a fuckbuddy. I don't think I ever was.
Will be, but not is,
or was.
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hedy1:
i *think* the trick to have a fuckbuddy is to like them well enough but know for dead certain that you'd never want to date them, whether they wanted to date you or not. might go so far as to say, like them, but feel a little superior to them at the same time. besides, they'll sense that and it'll drive them crazy hehe.
not that i would know, of course. .....
and snugllebuddies are fine and dandy, but could theoretically leave you feeling even lonlier.
sigh. xo
not that i would know, of course. .....
and snugllebuddies are fine and dandy, but could theoretically leave you feeling even lonlier.
sigh.
xo
theslant:
I can't believe I'm saying this. I hope my man-club membership doesn't get revoked:
snugglebuddies are the way to go. there is an intimacy in snuggling that by far surpasses libido-driven genital grinding.
hrm.. another wishcast? I tend to be extremely careful for what I wish for, but for you (and all your journal readers) I shall indulge myself and divulge:
I want the ability to turn my thoughts (the deeper ones, the ones that get me into trouble, and/or the ones that are just stupid) on and off like a switch. I want switches for each thought-utility. I want to turn on my b.s.'ing thought processes when I meet someone for the first time and/or attempt to woo. I want to turn on my wild and crazy thought processes when such induced action would cheer up a friend in dire need of wanton randominity.
for some reason the word pedant came to mind today. I checked the definition, and gottdamm, is that a cool word. I can go up to coffee shop intellectualists and call them pedants, or refer to their conversation matter as blathering pedantery.
hee!
and if they actually do know the meaning of the word, I'm betting that their taking offence will be overwhelmed with their impressedness of me.
snugglebuddies are the way to go. there is an intimacy in snuggling that by far surpasses libido-driven genital grinding.
hrm.. another wishcast? I tend to be extremely careful for what I wish for, but for you (and all your journal readers) I shall indulge myself and divulge:
I want the ability to turn my thoughts (the deeper ones, the ones that get me into trouble, and/or the ones that are just stupid) on and off like a switch. I want switches for each thought-utility. I want to turn on my b.s.'ing thought processes when I meet someone for the first time and/or attempt to woo. I want to turn on my wild and crazy thought processes when such induced action would cheer up a friend in dire need of wanton randominity.
for some reason the word pedant came to mind today. I checked the definition, and gottdamm, is that a cool word. I can go up to coffee shop intellectualists and call them pedants, or refer to their conversation matter as blathering pedantery.
hee!
and if they actually do know the meaning of the word, I'm betting that their taking offence will be overwhelmed with their impressedness of me.
i've been a mess. come too far to give up now.
all i can really give up, in this instance, is an offering:
been a MESS, i tell you. just never having processed events, ideas, feelings. that were hard to look at and deal with.
now's the time to be really tender w/yourself. in times like this. "resentment," quoth Anon, "is like a stream of...
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all i can really give up, in this instance, is an offering:
been a MESS, i tell you. just never having processed events, ideas, feelings. that were hard to look at and deal with.
now's the time to be really tender w/yourself. in times like this. "resentment," quoth Anon, "is like a stream of...
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light again
on my mind
baby when
we have time
morning comes
far too fast
dying
crying
for the past
ab+, from "truth"
http://mp3.com/abpos
on my mind
baby when
we have time
morning comes
far too fast
dying
crying
for the past
ab+, from "truth"
http://mp3.com/abpos
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rawr_ima_monster:
a: I'm "hella" cool? I think that might be the first time anyone' told me that specifically.
b: I'm "pursuiting" the female species? I hadn't realized. I guess that proves 'm doign a bad job of it.
c: We'll get a nice house? really? is that a guarantee if we get married? I certainly can't afford one, so if marrying oyu is gonna get me a nice house, that's a serious tipping of the scales in your favor, girlfriend.
d: Oh yeah, getting married oes save us money on taxes. this si starting to sound good. we can't be married in spereate counties though
e: Don't fight with Janeane. we can ALL be friends!
-f: yummy indeed!
Dave
b: I'm "pursuiting" the female species? I hadn't realized. I guess that proves 'm doign a bad job of it.
c: We'll get a nice house? really? is that a guarantee if we get married? I certainly can't afford one, so if marrying oyu is gonna get me a nice house, that's a serious tipping of the scales in your favor, girlfriend.
d: Oh yeah, getting married oes save us money on taxes. this si starting to sound good. we can't be married in spereate counties though
e: Don't fight with Janeane. we can ALL be friends!
-f: yummy indeed!
Dave
xaqary:
good mornin' sweet-so yeah-today shrinking photos, tomorrow the Oval office-I'm a man of the times I'll tell ya