alright,
well I've calmed down after last night. In fact I'm doing much better. I'm going tommorrow to check out an apartment and if I like it then I will sign the lease and give them the deposit. I think I can finally have a cat as well at this place I'm looking at so that will be nice, it'll just be me and my pussy.
The nice thing is that it's just down the road from school, and on top of that it's .3 miles from the Dayton Art Insitute, so I think I will try to get a job there, I figure hey I went to art school for two years I might as well use some of the knowledge. The bad thing is I can't do just a 6 month lease I believe so I will be here in Dayton a little longer then I was planning but I think I will go ahead and get my photo certificate from Sinclair.
to those of you whom were wondering what threw me over the edge so to speak was that last night i found out taht water is indeed thicker then blood. Betrayal from your own brother it's great to find out.
Anyways much love to you all, your my favorite peeps in the world.
life is merely a few events that you chose to remember. Everyone goes through hardships, evenyone experiences pain.
The Buddha was right suffering is something inate in human blood.
But I sit her I thought I cooled sown I thought I was better. But honestly I'm not I'm fucking pissed The site of my brother makes me want to punch him. All I ask is honesty. I try to be honest with everyone, but yes I do fuck around and I have fun when I trust the person just because I expect them to to fuck around. So here are things are if you ever felt wronf by me resond to this updated journal entry it's 10/12/04 6:23 AM so I will give a 40 mintue leyway.
Some of you might be wondering whoa what's up with Chris I honestly have never felt as much pain since Karen and I broke up for good and the person whom caused this pain, my own flesh and blood.....my brother.
I deeply apologize to anyone whom felt wronged by me in the journal entries, or online talking, or in person...let's just say I'm not the person I usually am...nor do I know how long it will take for me to take control, moving out is one thing but I have a new hole in my heart, right after the last one healed,
well I've calmed down after last night. In fact I'm doing much better. I'm going tommorrow to check out an apartment and if I like it then I will sign the lease and give them the deposit. I think I can finally have a cat as well at this place I'm looking at so that will be nice, it'll just be me and my pussy.
The nice thing is that it's just down the road from school, and on top of that it's .3 miles from the Dayton Art Insitute, so I think I will try to get a job there, I figure hey I went to art school for two years I might as well use some of the knowledge. The bad thing is I can't do just a 6 month lease I believe so I will be here in Dayton a little longer then I was planning but I think I will go ahead and get my photo certificate from Sinclair.
to those of you whom were wondering what threw me over the edge so to speak was that last night i found out taht water is indeed thicker then blood. Betrayal from your own brother it's great to find out.
Anyways much love to you all, your my favorite peeps in the world.
life is merely a few events that you chose to remember. Everyone goes through hardships, evenyone experiences pain.
The Buddha was right suffering is something inate in human blood.
But I sit her I thought I cooled sown I thought I was better. But honestly I'm not I'm fucking pissed The site of my brother makes me want to punch him. All I ask is honesty. I try to be honest with everyone, but yes I do fuck around and I have fun when I trust the person just because I expect them to to fuck around. So here are things are if you ever felt wronf by me resond to this updated journal entry it's 10/12/04 6:23 AM so I will give a 40 mintue leyway.
Some of you might be wondering whoa what's up with Chris I honestly have never felt as much pain since Karen and I broke up for good and the person whom caused this pain, my own flesh and blood.....my brother.
I deeply apologize to anyone whom felt wronged by me in the journal entries, or online talking, or in person...let's just say I'm not the person I usually am...nor do I know how long it will take for me to take control, moving out is one thing but I have a new hole in my heart, right after the last one healed,
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nilloh:
wow that sounds like much fun, I jealous of you! I'll probably crash on my chair with my blankie at some point 
nenia:
you silly! 