its been awhile since last talked deeply but its been 4 years since i been back from deployment i live in hawaii but still have issues sleeping at night and the memories of what happened over there with me and my little brother and even worse in jan on my birthday my older brother had a sudden cardiac arrest so now i cnt celebrate my bday without thinking bout my brother almost dying on us. my world just feels like its falling apart and yet i try to keep it together and show everybody i am strong willed and can pull together
but just wanted to give out my emotions somewhere so family doesnt see the tears that i cry at night