nexttuesday

Had a bad bout with the ear yesterday and ended up not going to job#2. Tried to relax but the roommate and I discovered something horrific that needed to be taken care of asap so I ended up spending a good portion of the day taking care of that. But I did go to bed at like 7pm. Would have been better if Peedoo would let me sleep through the night instead of waking me up 3 times.

I think my man is catching my stress. I need to let it go...gotta do some exercising and meditating to get rid of it.

Speaking of my man, I'm still working hard to get down there. I figure by January my big credit card will be paid off for sure. So if I move down there with the rest of my bills I'd want at least $3500 to cover four months worth of bills. $10,000 would be great but very unrealistic unless I can magically sell a bujillion things.

2 weeks till my BBQ!!!! I'm suuuuuper acited!

Just a side note...I hate it when people look at me with pity. Just because I have a few health issues and work really hard doesn't mean I want to be pitied. It also does not mean I want to be looked upon with admiration. Mostly I just want to be understood and left alone. All fuckin day, just because I had an attack in front of people, I'm getting the "That poor thing" look and it makes me so angry. I deal with my ear just fine thank you. I don't need your useless emotions that infuriate me. Pity is a waste of time. The only people who like being pitied are those same ones who crave admiration. Any fucking form of attention they feel makes them special. I dont want that. If I want attention I will demand it from my boyfriend or friends simply by saying "Gimme attention." And that's that.

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