nexttuesday

i hurt right now so i think ima ramble. this pain is not emotional it is phsyical. im okay though dont get all worried about it. just dont like unintentional pain. intentional pain is a whole different story. i like that. feels good. i cant fucking wait for tomorrow. tattoos. i wonder how many free stars i get tomorrow. i hope 4. not sure why. just seems like a non greedy but satisfying number i reckon. ramble ramble ramble. nobody tell me to get on my messengers either when you read this. im not gonna do it. cuz i just feel like sitting here and typing what pops in my head. i dont feel like having conversations with anyone. then i would have to think about thinking and thats hard today. im slightly spacey at the moment and im having a grand ole time just letting my fingers type out whatever they want. i think i have a new myspace message brb. yay brian is fun. anyways none of you know brian. well that isnt exactly true but the only one that does never talks cuz hes lame. hah. i hope you read that trav. that would make me laugh. anyways do di do. are you still reading this? that sucks if you are cuz i still havent said a single thing of importance. and i probably wont. you never know though with the way my head goes. ya know i fucking hate one uppers. theres this girl at job 2 that has to one up every fucking story anybody tells. seriously if i was like "dude my dog got hit by a car and has a broken leg." she would be like "this one time my dog got his by a car and lost three legs, half its tail and its eye feel out and had to be reattached to its nose. its true, i swear" i just wanna punch her until she realizes it doesnt matter. people are not telling her things so she can tell a "better" story. shit people typically just share stories to reaffirm the fact that they are still alive. listen. half the shit that comes out of anyones mouth is absolutely pointless. why do i care if you forgot to brush your teeth? im not making out with you am i? wtf do i care if you made a really good casserole? i cant make it cuz it prolly has milk in it. dont get me wrong im no better than anyone else. infact i can gaurentee i spew out more pointless shit than most people. at least i attempt to make mine interesting. by which i mean absolutely random. i tend to speak how my brain thinks. random, half thoughts that are totally unrelated to the last things i said. good story huh? still reading? i somehow doubt it cuz its pretty fucking annoying when someone writes an entry this long with no breaks and poor grammar im sure and no regard for capitalization mwah ha ha ha. that makes me evil right? well i think it does cuz i just keep talking. i wanna get my industrial done dammit. i have to choose btwn an industrial or even more tatts next week. tough choice cuz piercings were my first love buuuut tatts take so much longer which i love. again, good story. see all this pointless blabber if youre still reading save yourself and stop cuz im not done blabbering yet. i think ive sat here for about 20 minutes now just typing whatever comes to my head. wow my husband made a really fucking good comp. tonight. im impressed. id type it all but that doesnt sound like it will keep my mind off the pain i dont want. ooo my ear just popped. first time all week ive been able to hear out of my right ear. rock. im hungry. im always hungry. i eat like a fucking cow. oh word to the wise do NOT eat soy ice cream, peanut butter, and dr pepper mixed into a soupish treat right before bed. it gives you rully bad gut rot. whatta horrible way to wake up. seemed lika good idea at the time though. and on and on i ramble. chicken. those of you still reading were prolly reading this far just to see when that would slip out. you know whats funny? i know there is this boy reading this? HAH close your mouth or stop smiling maybe both oooo something different, emoticons. what? chicken. mmm water. seriously by the time im done typing this ima go to sleep. at least i hope. i dont think ima get good sleep tonight. i hurt too much. again dont worry i am fine. hrmm mind went blank for a second. interesting. why doesnt that ever happen when i want it to? is it possible for a journal entry to take up 2 pages? is there a limit to how much i can write? should i just keep going and going until i find out? nah, my arthritis is already starting to get pissed at me. ah slight relief, cracked my wrists. i need a good back cracking. boy come crack it dammit! um hmm. i like nofx. yay. i really like their song....You're Wrong. if you havent heard it go check it right now! im serious go! you guys should actually check out all these songs on this comp. amazing stuff i tell ya. wish it would lemme copy and paste cuz then you could see what i was listening too. im just too lazy to keep fliping screens. i have to pee so i will go now. those of you that stuck with it, if any of you did all i have to say is...dont you feel like you just wasted 10 minutes of your life?