nexttuesday

things never work out well when they are planned. my sister bailed out on goin dancing tonite which just bout made me cry. i was so happy about goin out and having fun. instead she convinced me to have dinner with mom and dad and watch a movie. talk about rip on me session. fuck. i honestly dont think it matters what i do or how hard i try i will never earn my familys respect. but wtf ever ya know. so we eat dinner and watch some stupid fuckin movie and i start to feel ill. my bones start to ache and i feel like hurling. somebody fed me milk dammit! how fucking long have we known i cant fucking have it?!? fuck! so now i sit here fuckin sick as hell whining in this fuckin journal pissed off at the fuckin world not even able to drink the vodka i just fuckin bought grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr must...do....something....