nessagirl

Frailty and Tragedy
Bitterness unheard
Cruelty and Sanity
the mind has been unnerved

Save me from the demons
that speak inside my head
Save me from the zombies
that reside beneath the bed

Protect me from myself
and all the harm that I wrought
Protect me from the fools
and their truth that I bought

Question all my motives
with the answers that I speak
Question all the evidence
with the facts that you seek

Return me to the living
if it can expound
Return me to the breathing
if it can be found

Give me back to passion
when ever you are done
Give me back to innocence
when ever you have won

Frailty and Tragedy
Bitterness unheard
Cruelty and Sanity
The mind has been unnerved

Its scary here can you hear it now can you seen it now.? Im scared, Im frightened sometimes of my own shadow, can you protect me can you keep me safe or will you hurt me. Im scared sometimes of you, not sure of what youre going to do, not sure if youll be the next or if youll be the last. What do I do? Im scared somebody help me.. Can I even save me from myself do I even want to be rescued. My mind is a maze, my thoughts are a jumble my touch is astray, its not sure anymore, help me please, its scary here underneath the bed in my mind in my head. I need you I need something I need anything, make it stop, make it stop; help help.

Its scary here in the dark, its scary here without a sound. I want something I want you I need a hand I need a shoulder but its not there its not there, the darkness is all thats there not a light not a spark not even a candle to find my way home. Where is home where has it gone, what is it anymore, does it exist, when did the planes of mind last see this. Who even saw it coming, who even saw that it existed? I love you but Im scared I want you and that frightens me, I dont want to feel overwhelmed, I dont want to lose you but Im scared that I might, its too good to be true, it has to be, it cant be such a good fairy tale, will it have a happy end? Will it, please tell me it will, I need it too, I need to believe in something. Im tired of believing in nothing, that nothing is myself, I cant stand on my own forever, Ive fallen too many times before.

Will you pick me up from the ground or at least help me to my knees, will you have my back as I attempt to stand on my own, my two feet beneath the weight of the world on shoulders that are dragging down. Im tired, so tired, so very tired and scared. Scared that Ill fall one last time and no one will be there. Forgive me and these thoughts forgive me and these words. To be just fine tis not true, I dont know what to say. Sorry isnt enough, believe me I would know. Ive been hurt and have hurt too many times. Some times I hurt myself to make me face reality that its all just not a dream, there is something here thats of worth, something here thats not of harm. Forgive me forgive me please, I hurt I hurt, I dont want to hurt you anymore, make it stop make it stop, I lash out at the world and expect it to answer in turn , I expect the same as I gave, I expect it to be a lesson learned.

The shadows are eating me the darkness is still there, the sun not beating down to warm my once vibrant face. Let you be the key to this tightly locked up soul, let you be the piece to this puzzle of thy unfinished mind, let you be the hand to calm this darting spirit let you be the one to finish this half and make it a whole. There are questions , so many questions there always are and always will be, I dont know where to start, I cant put into rhyme the questions of this heart. Forgive me now forgive me. Whats taken years is known and learned in moments, memories created of light, let darkness fade. I need it I want it let it be there let it be so, help me please, I know its there. Can one understand the confusion in my mind, give it time give it time, and it will make sense in the end. Give it time, Im trying to try to give it time its not a lie. Be here be now dont depart from my vow.

I love you I love you and I do, Ill love you forever Ill love you for always Ill love you till the end Bear with me through the days, bear with it through the hours, accept a smile turned in favor, a kiss upon thy lips, a touch here in this passing, until forever Im yours. The jokes are all said the dice are all played the cards are all laid out what move will you make. None of the comments meant to hurt no words to make such hate. Forgive this hurting heart, a package all in one, body-to-body; heart-to-heart, let love rule the land....

So these are some of my writings i'm just waiting to come up with a few more and then i'll try and publish them!!