nerra

I really hate stress. Also I hate that when one thing goes wrong, everything else has to follow. Ever felt like you were on the sidelines watching buildings collapse (my metaphor for life). I feel like that. Just sitting there watching each one come down, Some fast. Some slow. But inevitably they come down. When do things start to build up then collapse down? What is the turn around? I feel like I have two good things in my life. My best friend and the Man I love. But why do things become so over whelming that you can't enjoy what you have right then and there? All you can think about is what is gonna happen next? Drowning yourself in the "what ifs." How do I stop worrying? How do I change things when everytime I try I just get pushed back even further?

That is my rant for the day.