nenia

i've received a few photoshoot offers recently. i'd get paid $300 for one, and i'm not sure about the other..i do need the money but i've gained weight and feel gross about myself. also i don't know if i want to bother with sitting around posing for hours. blah. then again...$300 would pay for me to fly out somewhere warm for a vacation....
i'm going to go visit my mr. b tomorrow. i wish i wasn't so awkward & self-conscious around people.