necrocide

wow... so little time to update lately...

basically... i'm making minimum wage, being worked like a dog, and i couldn't be happier about it... when i have real life things to be stressed about, i have little time to be concerned about stupid teenager things i should've been done with years ago, such as what people think of me, or whether or not i should...
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well, i'm returning to the wonderful world of employment tonight... it's been 2 and a half fricken years since i've been working, and somehow i miss it and yet i'm really nervous to be going back... i think working has been a missing link in my life...

i know i'm under my parents thumb and all, but they do show me a lot of hospitality...
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I GOTZ MEH A JOB NUCKAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fuck yeah son!

*sigh*

^ BIG FUCKIN SIGH!

i thought i was gonna get this job i'm waiting on for sure... now i'm starting to lose hope... usually a job called me back within the week when i had it... it's been over a week since i was drug tested... i've been sitting at home just for the damn call... nothing... i dunno if it's the fact that...
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d'ya ever wake up in an inexplicably relaxed mood? i'm awake and it's like things can go bad and i just won't care.... sometimes i think its the way i sleep that will put me in a bad mood... and if i get just the right amount of sleep without tossing and turning, i'll be good to go

i swore to god i'd never have...
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woah..... a night of drinking... its the next morning... and i'm emotionally stable........ awesome!

its been a while since that's been able to happen...

todays gonna be cool hopefully

i didn't get a whole lot of sleep... i'm hoping maybe if i pass out a few more hours i'll be good to go

oh... two nights ago... i was molested by 2 attractive hispanic police...
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i never allow myself to enjoy life

i'm on a freaking vacation and i DONT enjoy it!! i'm stressed about getting a #@%#! job! i can like... just enjoy it, but i dont! i'm stressed cuz i can't sleep so i can wake up and do... nothing!

but i did apply and i have a pretty decent chance of being hired it seems... need to...
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FUCK! i have this weird stupid habit of putting a journal entry into a comment from the previous one... and i dont feel like typing it up all over again... lazy lazy me

edit:

all right... now i'm not so lazy... i'm just procrastinating to leave the house... i said something about my dream... there was a giant black widow spider... i dont know why......
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death is a fraggin kick ass band.... i knew about chuck schuldiner from death having a brain tumor for the longest time... last i heard he was recovering nicely... and i just found out a couple of months ago that he died in late 2001... which is a goddamn shame i'm listening to lack of comprehension... which is an awesome song... RIP chuck

well i'm...
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@#$%&! &%$#@! @&#$@!

crap.

i just can't win the good fight against the day... last night i brought home a few beers and came home early(i NEVER drink or smoke at home) and drank them and passed out... i was hoping to get a good NIGHT's sleep for once... the first since the last semester has ended... and i did fall asleep early... for like...
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Hmm..... well I've given up on someone i thought i had loved... she did some fucked up things... not to me mind you... but to others who were good friends of hers and mine... and basically she has changed alot because of a guy... but all this has caused me to lose alot of feeling for her... so i'm not really so much upset about...
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I just learned the entire intro to Fade To Black from Metallica... I didn't do anything special today except that... but it's wierd how learning a guitar part will make me feel fullfilled for the day...

I just got off the phone with my friends ex-fiancee... I tell you that's some crazy shit to be doing... I'm supposed to be hanging out with her cuz...
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