naja_haje

I logged on tonight and clicked on that ghastly sg survivor thread. My handle never had anything to do with that show, but the connection scarred me. For life.

I have found some guys to play with again. I'm back in the saddle. When I moved out here I met a few guys but nothing ever clicked, so I cocooned myself. What amazes me the most is how much my ego has dissolved. I never used to act like king shit, but I would obsess or place to much importance on bullshit that only mattered to my own sense of grandeur.

Now I don't really give a fuck. Of course it's too early to tell, but I really do appreciate the change it has had on my outlook.

Lower expectations. It really is nice. Not just of myself but what the other people have of me. It is so satisfying to walk into a jam session with a bunch of the local hitters and have all their heads turned because the new guy actually has chops.

Ok, I guess I still have an ego.