The dead keep contacting me in my dreams. People that lingered in my life however briefly pull me aside and talk to me in languages that I do not understand. I see their faces and instantly recognize them, even if she was only in my third grade class for eighteen days and i saw her at The Alamo during the Sesquicentennial. Nonetheless she is dead...
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saeta:
i just wanted to say your profile pic is awesome. rorchach was the best character by far.
one year ago i spent my days walking around in a fog, trying to figure out what had just happened. 3 years down the drain.
four years ago i spent holding her, comforting her after she went to the clinic and took the pills that took away what we created, but neither of us wanted. i was always against abortion, stating things like well even...
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four years ago i spent holding her, comforting her after she went to the clinic and took the pills that took away what we created, but neither of us wanted. i was always against abortion, stating things like well even...
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tigerlily:
thank you for the comments in my journal. 
december and the beginning of winter is a difficult time as it is...the need to hibernate is thrown off to be social, to go shopping, to be merry...when we really feel just the opposite. so add on any additional baggage, and it's a hard time.
since you were so candid, i will be as well...i've had 3 abortions (every one a regret) and i miscarried a baby at 5 months...so i speak from experience when i say i understand how you feel, and if it's any consolation, i truly, deeply believe that there are no mistakes, that everything happens for a reason, and all life begins and ends when it should. abortions are terribly traumatic things, that no one prepares you for. it's normal, i think, how you feel. maybe don't beat up on yourself so hard?
december and the beginning of winter is a difficult time as it is...the need to hibernate is thrown off to be social, to go shopping, to be merry...when we really feel just the opposite. so add on any additional baggage, and it's a hard time.
since you were so candid, i will be as well...i've had 3 abortions (every one a regret) and i miscarried a baby at 5 months...so i speak from experience when i say i understand how you feel, and if it's any consolation, i truly, deeply believe that there are no mistakes, that everything happens for a reason, and all life begins and ends when it should. abortions are terribly traumatic things, that no one prepares you for. it's normal, i think, how you feel. maybe don't beat up on yourself so hard?
pmonkeyesquire:
I really hope they never make that Watchmen movie cause how could they do it propers?!??!?!?
dec 3rd of last year hit me like a brick. after about 3 yrs anne decided that she did not want me in her life anymore. she told me we were through.
we were sitting talking, on the couch, and i told her that i had a feeling that she would be going to columbia for law school next year. and with that comment a...
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we were sitting talking, on the couch, and i told her that i had a feeling that she would be going to columbia for law school next year. and with that comment a...
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zode:
Dan and Will Shelton are sort of Friends of mine. They do have a pretty good Beer Eye. You seem to know your way around Beer as well.
ilovemikehunt:
oh my god... i love it whn people tell me i'm full of shit and can logically shut me the fukc up.
there's nothing more beautiful.
there's nothing more beautiful.
so i just filled up a cup of water and walked to my window and tossed its contents at two cats who at first i thought were fucking, but they were fighting something fierce. and it went on for about 3 minutes till i tossed the water.
don't they know how to run away. even my opening the window did not scare them off. the...
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don't they know how to run away. even my opening the window did not scare them off. the...
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after drinking 64 oz of imperial stout my shit detector buzzes all night.
i miss my wonderful chelskiss who rests in mexico tonight
i hate to mis people, it makes me miss my brother even more. he was born in 1971, a few years before me and 4 months more premature. he never tasted air. ok, so he was never born, but he did get...
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i miss my wonderful chelskiss who rests in mexico tonight
i hate to mis people, it makes me miss my brother even more. he was born in 1971, a few years before me and 4 months more premature. he never tasted air. ok, so he was never born, but he did get...
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sneakypie:
are you named nadir for the character of the persian investigatior in the phantom of the opera novel?
..cuz if so we should make babies, or at least practice lots.
..cuz if so we should make babies, or at least practice lots.
the coming election has me thinking
will a democrat actully reduce or elminate the patriot act and other abuses of the constitition, or will the euphoria of kicking bush out cloud the memories of the dems; therefore, the status quo will continue with just a new happier face in charge
i also am calling bill clinton as sec of state should a dem win the...
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will a democrat actully reduce or elminate the patriot act and other abuses of the constitition, or will the euphoria of kicking bush out cloud the memories of the dems; therefore, the status quo will continue with just a new happier face in charge
i also am calling bill clinton as sec of state should a dem win the...
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teclo:
nice rorshach.
nice rorshach.
the job hunt continues and i keep looking for things that i am not qualified for
people here have so much specialization that i am a lost cause
or is it that i am looking for things that i know i can never get so that i can hide away in my apt and not be forced to confront the possiblity that i no longer...
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people here have so much specialization that i am a lost cause
or is it that i am looking for things that i know i can never get so that i can hide away in my apt and not be forced to confront the possiblity that i no longer...
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zork:
Your description of your job search sounds kind of like my approach to relationships... not sure whether that's good or bad...
Anyway, best of luck with it.
So... just wanted to say that I liked your comments in the philosophy group.
Anyway, best of luck with it.
So... just wanted to say that I liked your comments in the philosophy group.
at this time of year i bolt the door and turn off the phone
escape, or try and escape the crap that is christmas, as much as i love thnaksgiving, i hate christmas
all my friends have gone into debt buying gifts that no one wants
one even told me that if she did not the economy would crumble. wtf.
a day where you fet...
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escape, or try and escape the crap that is christmas, as much as i love thnaksgiving, i hate christmas
all my friends have gone into debt buying gifts that no one wants
one even told me that if she did not the economy would crumble. wtf.
a day where you fet...
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this 2 more fav girls is killing me
i had to go through and see who was a veg for inclusion, damn moral fiber i stand on...
i had to go through and see who was a veg for inclusion, damn moral fiber i stand on...
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sinamen:
I had olivia up for a long time bc of the same issue...plus I could see that she uses the same toothpaste as I do. Alas I opted for girls with meat on their bones... and I saw some black bootie that won her spot... but she was the last skinny girl to go 
aries:
happy b-day
so job interview tomorrow
maybe i can stop looking
hate the life of job seeker, would much rather drink beer all day and write
alas, i must pay rent as well
maybe i can stop looking
hate the life of job seeker, would much rather drink beer all day and write
alas, i must pay rent as well