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So I had a rehearsal for the bridal show and this is the dress I'll be wearing. I'm opening the show and am the first to walk the runway for not only the David's Bridal portion but whole show.

I'm kind of indifferent about the whole thing though and really just want to get some cash. I need new jeans and boots... I always need...
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the_reverend:
Thinkin' about me, huh? kiss kiss wink tongue

i read your thread. Sorry, i have trouble even putting attachments on emails. But good luck none the less!
Seriously, my only advice would be look on the toolbar, or check your printer settings.
aeg:
Of course, you're the prettiest girl on here. wink
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So... yesterday's journal was full of rage and frustration. I was just sure that Waylon was going to come home without the damn lunchbox and that I'd have to hold myself back but I was pleasantly surprised.

He got off the bus, ran across the street, and before he even got to our house was telling me he brought his lunch box and knew where...
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missmyla:
Mini house party at hypnogogic's Saturday night? Free music and cheap liquor if we bring our own. What do you think?
thejuanupsman:
Every parent has those kinds of frustrations. You can tell the good parents by how they act after the fact. And they act just like you did. It's the parents who never bother to explain that are the problem. I can tell you are a good mom. And trust me. I know a lot about bad parenting. I see the results of it all the time. I am just glad there are good parents out there to keep me from getting too jaded.


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Sometimes I feel like such a fraud. In every way but at the moment as a mother.

It's the third day of school and Waylon has forgotten to bring home his lunch case TWICE already. I told him he was grounded from playing with the neighbor until he brings it home. But then... last night... I had him write me a paragraph about his new...
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shinyredstar:
I grew up with a real asshole stepfather (he's now divorced from my mom and is in a psychiatric prison if that gives you any idea, but that's another story). He was very verbally abusive when I was young. At some point after becoming a parent and constantly beating myself up over stuff like that, I realized something about parents... we're humans. In his case, he's a Vietnam vet who used to have a lot of flashbacks, etc, and really believed he was exposed to chemical agents, and that's not too hard to believe. I can't even imagine how incredibly difficult it would have been to survive something like that. He was also a really good guy- very funny, intelligent, and really wanted a good, normal family. He called me about 6 months ago (before prison) and left me a voice mail, apologizing for anything he'd ever done that hurt me and I heard real pain in his voice. It didn't erase the things he'd done, but I understand now why it happened and the suffering he was going through, too.

You're human. You're going to say shitty things that you don't really feel good about later, and you're going to get angry/disappointed with your kids. As long as you love them and show them that you love them (and aren't doing anything wacky like handcuffing them in a crib or slapping them in the head when they spill their milk), you're doing your job as a parent.

I don't think this is helpful so I'm stopping now.
heatherdlite:
third grade is a tough one.

my daughter had a hard time with it.

don't kill yourself over it. but it is very frustrating.

kids make you do crazy and all but they are so worth it, and it sounds like you are doing the right thing.

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Well, I agreed to do the Portland Bridal Show this year for my agent who casts the thing. It's kind of a silly thing but it is fun to dress up... and considering I will never get married again it's a chance to at least look like a bride.

wink

But it's also hard to find dresses that fit my tig ole bitties.

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After an hour...
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zumbi22:
hey you! it's been a while, but i'm finally back on the site and wanted to drop a quick line to say hey. i hope things are going well for you! take care.
chazgasm:
haha i still a whole year till im 21, im a baby i dont turn 21 till my senior year of college blush and you are not old, and even if you are id still do you all night long wink kiss
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Waylon starts 3rd grade tomorrow... it's really surreal to think that my baby is so mature. It's also a wake up call to the fact that I'm 30 years old- which is another issue.

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heatherdlite:
It only gets more exciting after 30.

Dont think about it much, and it wont bother you.

I think I absolutely went berserk after 30, but in a good way.

It's still good..... biggrin
the_reverend:
My day was worse than i thought.
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I'm going to get my tattoo soon... and I finally found what I've been looking for all along. It's a beaded piece that I thought would be amazing as a tattoo because of the vibrant colors.

Anyway, it will be a triple rosette with a traditional sunburst pattern and a pic of a single rosette is below. I'm completely retarded when it comes to Photoshop...
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oracle:
ya that was sweet biggrin
the_reverend:
i can't wait to see it!
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Being indecisive about tattoos is not a good thing. I'm really frustrated right now and I wish I could just DRAW IT OUT.


But I'm lame. I have absolutely NO artistic talent.

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In other news... I am going to get my car fixed now that the dude who hit me confirmed his liability with his insurance company. Then I'm going to get my timing belt...
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bankerboy:
I wish they were just dogs or cats, not the case though. frown

Thanks for the comment.
biscayne:
Call me later and let me know when you are going to BG. Missed you last night, hope all is good!
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I really hate what I'm about to post. Mainly because I absolutely love being a mother, and I adore kids in general; I feel guilty for even feeling this way but I need to get it out of my head in the hopes I will feel differently if I do.

My neighbor has a foster son who is the same age as my boys (third...
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hypnogogic:
That is classic. I love kids.
Last night Jesse and i were laying in bed, jesse had no top on. Addies came down to go potty. She came in to give us hugs goodnight, on the way out she says "momma, i like your boobies"
hypnogogic:
tee hee. i like the whole package. wink
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nimiipuu:
I can't agree with the last one or the third to last. sorry tongue
hypnogogic:
I got your message. No problem, we tried to have fun without you.
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John Trudell called me the other day and he's coming to Eugene next week and Portland in November.

I can't wait to see him!
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biscayne:
...the closing of your doors will never shut us out, the closing of your doors can only shut you in...
When? I want to go!
max16characters:
Who's John Trudell?