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n8tvegrl

Portland, OR

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Tuesday Apr 12, 2005

Apr 12, 2005
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3 months and 2 days before I turn 30. Somehow I was thinking I had four months to go... now I'm a bit panicked. I'm going to have to bust my ass a bit to lose 20 lbs... but I think it can still be done.

I was thinking that I'd run a marathon before I turned 30. That and a few other things which have not come to pass either. Aaaaaaaah well. As long as I can wear a sexy dress and dance my ass off all night with friends I'll be alright.

I'm not sure why people are so freaked out about 30. I know it sounds like I am but I'm really just preparing myself in case it hits me out of the blue. It reminds me of labor though... I was so freaked out because of what I had heard that I was really surprised and relieved that it wasn't all that bad.

But I do want to feel good and look good and take the time at that milestone to reevaluate things and set some new goals for my life. I feel as if I've been kind of in limbo for a bit and have been neglecting "Sarah" in my day to day life.

It's easy to do when you have kids. Most of the time I don't have an identity and I go to school or to ball games and meet other moms. I find myself introducing myself as "Waylon's mom" and then I meet "Jordan's mom." God forbid I have to call one of them and realize I have no idea who they are.

I actually had to call a mom for Waylon's birthday party and found myself asking for "Ashley's mom". Scary.

Anyway... sorry for the tangent. I hate reading long journals.

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the_reverend:
Hey, 30 looking 18 is the best way to be turning 30, huh? wink
Apr 12, 2005
loslope:
Thirty wasn't the big deal for me or my wife (both just turned 34) its the time constraints, body, etc. The little lady stays thin, and I look at food and get bigger eeek School, work and kids keep me from the same work out program, so I got faaaaat mad

As far as Fred's on 20th; yes I do shop there. I have a boy and a girl though. The little girl has very little hair, so you may have thought her a boy...who knows. Next time, ask the fellow if he is Jason. He'll either be me, or a fella that will be happy to be mistaken. I'll let you know about Auto's, I have to look at baby sitting too. Take care.
Apr 13, 2005

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